its the end of the world as we know it
January 16th. this day marks the official end of my adolescence and birth into full fledged adulthood. i can't return to my life before and that scares me. i always known this would come but never before had i ever thought that it would be one particular day, let alone talk/dinner. the world that i knew before is gone. a completed chapter of my book written and unable to be edited. that makes me particularly sad.
sorrow.
thats just what i need on top of all this other bullshit that i need and already have.
there is so much that i just need to deal with and havent. i felt like i could just push my sadness and flawed emotions aside, close my eyes and make them disappear.
OBVIOUSLY i was wrong.
severely wrong.
and to boot...i have classes starting this week....just another hit.
sorrow.
thats just what i need on top of all this other bullshit that i need and already have.
there is so much that i just need to deal with and havent. i felt like i could just push my sadness and flawed emotions aside, close my eyes and make them disappear.
OBVIOUSLY i was wrong.
severely wrong.
and to boot...i have classes starting this week....just another hit.