lol why is my life so effed up?
Today, I received a PM from an anon calling me a homewrecker.
And well, let's be frank. I am.
There's no denying it. I was the "other girl" when my boyfriend was dating his (now) ex. But let me make one thing very clear: there wasn't a single time I didn't feel guilty. Every day since it started, I looked back on the things I did and wondered if it was all worth it. I was putting my reputation, my friendship with him, and her feelings all on the line. Don't you dare simplify the situation by saying I did what I did just to be happy, and don't imply that I seduced him.
Yes, I felt like shit when the two of them broke up, especially after knowing I was a huge factor. But in all honesty--and this is going to sound horrible--he was going to break up with her anyway. He outright told me that he knew that they wouldn't last when he left for college, and that he'd break up with her before summer ended. Maybe I just acted as a catalyst.
So yeah. Yell at me, scold me, but I'm not going to leave him. I don't care if I'm going to hell for what I did. We've been through too much, and I love him too much to dump him just to make you happy, anon.
Love,
Ayu
And well, let's be frank. I am.
There's no denying it. I was the "other girl" when my boyfriend was dating his (now) ex. But let me make one thing very clear: there wasn't a single time I didn't feel guilty. Every day since it started, I looked back on the things I did and wondered if it was all worth it. I was putting my reputation, my friendship with him, and her feelings all on the line. Don't you dare simplify the situation by saying I did what I did just to be happy, and don't imply that I seduced him.
Yes, I felt like shit when the two of them broke up, especially after knowing I was a huge factor. But in all honesty--and this is going to sound horrible--he was going to break up with her anyway. He outright told me that he knew that they wouldn't last when he left for college, and that he'd break up with her before summer ended. Maybe I just acted as a catalyst.
So yeah. Yell at me, scold me, but I'm not going to leave him. I don't care if I'm going to hell for what I did. We've been through too much, and I love him too much to dump him just to make you happy, anon.
Love,
Ayu