And You Can Have It All ... My Empire Of Dirt
I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel.
I focused on the pain, the only thing that's real...
What have I become, my sweetest friend.
Everyone I love, goes away in the end.
And you could have it all, my empire of dirt.
I will let you down, I will make you hurt.♥
My counselor says to combine all my broken thoughts, in a outline, every night, in order to remember.
When you think you finally have everything under control life will throw you a curve ball.
Unfortunately that's not what matters. It's how you allow yourself to come our of it and weather you allow your self to become a better person from it.
I talked to Amanda for the first time in a year and a half.
She and I have a past but as for a future there's no telling what will happen. Live everyday as it comes and live every second as if it was your last. Don't hold grudges, just embrace the knowledge and judgement that comes with all pain.
Keep true to only you.
If you don't then life is worthless. More then money, possessions, nice things, your heart's happieness is priceless and the best thing one can ever expirence.
But never forget it is after all life.
You will continue learning until the day you die. And that's one of the most valubale gifts we have been given. The ability to understand and gain and work with this plan we are given at birth in order to do what society has dubed life. The strong make it. But the invincible make it and make it last forever.
I don't think I have ever been this mentally stable in my life.
I know what is real and what is not. I know the difference between what I need and what I want. And I know now that the decisions I make are more then just choices but test in order to get a good grade.
I am in love.
I will never feel this way about anyone else. Matt is my sunshine and I am his world. He means more to me then life and I don't ever really act like it. I don't want to. I don't want to admit that I need him just as much if not so much more then he needs me.
I have one true friend, and I don't want... or need any others.
Jessica will never leave me behind and never hurt me purposley. She has been the truest friend to me, and I don't realy deserve her. But I won't take it for granite. I promise.
That's all.
It's sloppy and misspelled and its unorganized. But it's my thoughts. And I guess that's me.
xoxo
aimee♥
I focused on the pain, the only thing that's real...
What have I become, my sweetest friend.
Everyone I love, goes away in the end.
And you could have it all, my empire of dirt.
I will let you down, I will make you hurt.♥
My counselor says to combine all my broken thoughts, in a outline, every night, in order to remember.
When you think you finally have everything under control life will throw you a curve ball.
Unfortunately that's not what matters. It's how you allow yourself to come our of it and weather you allow your self to become a better person from it.
I talked to Amanda for the first time in a year and a half.
She and I have a past but as for a future there's no telling what will happen. Live everyday as it comes and live every second as if it was your last. Don't hold grudges, just embrace the knowledge and judgement that comes with all pain.
Keep true to only you.
If you don't then life is worthless. More then money, possessions, nice things, your heart's happieness is priceless and the best thing one can ever expirence.
But never forget it is after all life.
You will continue learning until the day you die. And that's one of the most valubale gifts we have been given. The ability to understand and gain and work with this plan we are given at birth in order to do what society has dubed life. The strong make it. But the invincible make it and make it last forever.
I don't think I have ever been this mentally stable in my life.
I know what is real and what is not. I know the difference between what I need and what I want. And I know now that the decisions I make are more then just choices but test in order to get a good grade.
I am in love.
I will never feel this way about anyone else. Matt is my sunshine and I am his world. He means more to me then life and I don't ever really act like it. I don't want to. I don't want to admit that I need him just as much if not so much more then he needs me.
I have one true friend, and I don't want... or need any others.
Jessica will never leave me behind and never hurt me purposley. She has been the truest friend to me, and I don't realy deserve her. But I won't take it for granite. I promise.
That's all.
It's sloppy and misspelled and its unorganized. But it's my thoughts. And I guess that's me.
xoxo
aimee♥