Thank you
I'm not going to discount the messege of this update by saying... I've come a long way from my freshman year at GC... and now everything is WONDERFUL in my life... cause that's not true....
the fact of the matter is, yes, I have come a long way since freshman year. I've done a lot of growing... I've learned who I can trust and who I can't trust... and it's sad some of the people that fall into that category...
I've learned not to rely on others... and that God is really the only one who can truly help me through everything I'm going through... and while I know there are many who care about me... I also know we're all human... and there's only so much we can give before we can't give anymore...
I learned this the hard way. But I learned it... I've learned that without God... a relationship of any kind... romantic and otherwise... is not much of a relationship at all. And I've learned the true colors of many people... I'll be back in the fall... it's official now... but I'm not sure how much of it I'll enjoy...
where once I was a social butterfly wanting nothing but to be with other people, with "friends." Wanting to be wanted, wanting to be needed... and rarely feeling any of it... being completely numb for the longest time because it hurt too care so much... I have finally found the light... it's not MY character flaw that leaves me alone most of the time... no... It's God's way of telling me... who is the ONLY one who can and WILL always be there for me...
upon that realization... I discovered, I don't need people as much as I thought I did... I mean obviously friends are always wanted and appreciated... but the actual term "friend" is reserved for those who never left my side... never faltered once... were always there even when they themselves were excluded from things that I was doing... those who didn't judge me... and showed me what it truly meant to live a Godly life... it's researved for those who God placed in my life recently... who have said themselves that they only have a few friends because that's the way they want it... and that to be incorporated in that grouping, I feel truly honored and blessed... and first and foremost... it is reserved for God... because... God has always been there... and I know he loves me...
To all those who fall into this category.... and I hope you know who you are: I want to truly thank you... from the bottom of my heart... It has been a long journey... one of which I hope and pray you will be able to keep traveling with me... even after we are unable to see and or speak to each other as often as we have in the past...
Yes... I have grown a lot... I have changed a lot... and Jesus has been my love and guide through it all... most of all I thank You God for your undying love and grace. You truly are my Rock and My Salvation... and I would be nothing without you...
No I don't know what's to come in my life in the years to come... but I'm not worried either... because I have God. because I have true friends... that while it took a while to find them, I did in the end... and I'm so glad I did... thank you all.
~*~ME~*~
the fact of the matter is, yes, I have come a long way since freshman year. I've done a lot of growing... I've learned who I can trust and who I can't trust... and it's sad some of the people that fall into that category...
I've learned not to rely on others... and that God is really the only one who can truly help me through everything I'm going through... and while I know there are many who care about me... I also know we're all human... and there's only so much we can give before we can't give anymore...
I learned this the hard way. But I learned it... I've learned that without God... a relationship of any kind... romantic and otherwise... is not much of a relationship at all. And I've learned the true colors of many people... I'll be back in the fall... it's official now... but I'm not sure how much of it I'll enjoy...
where once I was a social butterfly wanting nothing but to be with other people, with "friends." Wanting to be wanted, wanting to be needed... and rarely feeling any of it... being completely numb for the longest time because it hurt too care so much... I have finally found the light... it's not MY character flaw that leaves me alone most of the time... no... It's God's way of telling me... who is the ONLY one who can and WILL always be there for me...
upon that realization... I discovered, I don't need people as much as I thought I did... I mean obviously friends are always wanted and appreciated... but the actual term "friend" is reserved for those who never left my side... never faltered once... were always there even when they themselves were excluded from things that I was doing... those who didn't judge me... and showed me what it truly meant to live a Godly life... it's researved for those who God placed in my life recently... who have said themselves that they only have a few friends because that's the way they want it... and that to be incorporated in that grouping, I feel truly honored and blessed... and first and foremost... it is reserved for God... because... God has always been there... and I know he loves me...
To all those who fall into this category.... and I hope you know who you are: I want to truly thank you... from the bottom of my heart... It has been a long journey... one of which I hope and pray you will be able to keep traveling with me... even after we are unable to see and or speak to each other as often as we have in the past...
Yes... I have grown a lot... I have changed a lot... and Jesus has been my love and guide through it all... most of all I thank You God for your undying love and grace. You truly are my Rock and My Salvation... and I would be nothing without you...
No I don't know what's to come in my life in the years to come... but I'm not worried either... because I have God. because I have true friends... that while it took a while to find them, I did in the end... and I'm so glad I did... thank you all.
~*~ME~*~