August 2014
Thought I should do a "proper" post while waiting for sh. (My definition of proper post has changed drastically. )
I'm now in high society at MBS eating a tart worth $9, drinking a ILT at $9 too with service not worth 10%.
And today, it's August the First. 5 more months and 2014 will end. Scary? Yeah.
10 years ago... I was 16 and battling with O level. I won't imagine that 10yrs later I'll be an assistant underwriter. At that point of time, I won't know what oil rig is and what insurance is. And a $9 ILT/tart is absurd. Back then, I wasn't confident and I had no idea what my skills were.
5 years ago... I was 21 and preparing for Norway exchange. I was so happy that time. That I could go Norway and something was gg my way. Life was perfect despite doing 2 jobs and I always have this "what if" with me. At that point of time, I imagined myself working as a mgmt trainee at some shipping company and most prob be of someone by now. I didn't know that the exchange trip would change my life forever. Not sure about the reason behind the change but definitely for the better.
My 2nd full year working. My first promotion. To me, after working for 2 yrs, I can't use "I'm new~~~" as an excuse anymore. No more hiding behind, no more excuses. It's time to face the war. In my mind it was a "make or break" year and I got a promotion. So I guess it's a "make" year for me.
But somehow deep inside, I felt something is wrong.
I wasn't happy but I know it's because I felt unfair that I didn't receive help while others do (I was the one who gave up). With no admin support and more underwriting responsibility, my workload increased substantially and I can't complete them. It doesn't help when my admin support always leave work on time (not as if she shouldn't)
And I think at the same time I feel like I'm a white elephant. I don't think I'm performing duties which an assistant underwriter should be doing. But I think I'm new so it takes time and not as if I want to do more (not as if I don't want to do more too). I'm just worried if I'm performing up to my boss' s expectations.
In conclusion, I need to talk to my boss. Ok, I shall have coffee ☕ with him next week.:)
5 more months to 2015, I wish I can do more, not just for work and of course for jap. And definitely for my Mr Right.
Sh is here, till the next post!
W love,
Sushi.