My Day Ends With Confusion
Well work went pleasant as normal..got in at 12:30 Neva came in at 1 was glad to see her all good, she told me how she got in the car reck and it wasn't her fault but glad my Neva is okay. Brad came in at 2 said he had one last final on Sat...I should drag him clubbing on Sunday...the x-mas party for our work is this Sunday too I might go for an hour and just get ready for the club. I know Caleb is going to the party and is taking someone with him...the girls think he is bringing a girl but I honestly think it's his roommate or one of his siblings...we'll see...it's my mom's birthday too i doubt we're gonna do anything besides I wanna go out and have fun I so need it even though I had fun last week lol...work went pretty fast...my first break was at 3 then my lunch or dinner was at 5:30 I went home found my music mag Virus in the mail....awesome mag they are on myspace by the way so check out my list of friends and you can find them...it's pretty much all the music we listen to that they talk about...went back to work at 6:30...covered Roberta's break at like 7:10 went back to the main line and talked to Brad who was lucky and got to leave at 8...I asked him if he was going home for christmas to washington and he said yeah he also said he wasn't sure if he was going to be staying there forever which made me a bit sad to say the least...I will miss my Brad if he stays but i understand none of his family lives here so why not stay in washington...after he clocked out he came back and was like Brad you're leaving us for the night but you're with us mentally and spiritually and then he said and physically and then I looked at him and was like oh really physically huh he looked at me and was like that sounded wrong huh and I was like yeah...but we both busted up laughing at that. I went to pro around 8:15 to cover Sean's break he came back at 8:30 when I was talking to Neva on the phone she was asking if he had come back and I was like yeah and he's molesting me taking off my apron which he was so I was smacking him hehe...I went to my break and when i came back it was like 8:45 and the store was closing pretty much...my comp ended up freezing at one point and no longer did I ring people up so awesome...anyway we closed and I told Sean I wanted to see King Kong so did he and Neva damnit when does it come out. I guess Sean said he had been to the church once and liked it but he doesnt go cause he has a gf who has kids so they like never go out and party...porno them...tomorrow I work from 12 to 9 how awesome is that not...there is a benefit though I work with Caleb who comes in at 12:30 and closes well 9 is closing but not closing closing if you know what I mean....
Anyway I'm totally and utterly confused...I went to myspace and it said someone posted a new blog which ended up being Caleb's the heading was Love...I really didn't want to read it just in case he mentioned who he was in love with but me being me I ended up opening it up anyway thinking hey maybe he's just gonna be talking about love I mean people do that I almost did this week but didn't....anyway this is what he wrote....
Love, love, love... It drives you crazy doesn't it. For those of us who have come out or are in understand the beginning of the depth of love. Being honest and truthful is wonderful. Unfortunately, I can't take my own medicine. Not yet, let me just lie a little bit. Actually, I'm stalling. The reason, it's not time for me to let love unfold itself. It's a strange predicament I find myself in, not being able to be honest on the outside. Yes, yell at me if you will, but you don't understand. See, I am being honest, because nothing but the truth has been found in these words. I can't run away with love yet, and those of you who know what I'm saying, we know how we feel and I feel for you for the reals. I have a deep crush that has moved my heart. I can't stop thinking and feeling for a passion that has found her way in my heart. She doesn't know, but it's not time yet. It's not my time to be rejected yet, ha. But I'll let her reject me, when she can reject me of her own free will. Blaa, bla, blaa, bla... This is all you hear right? Yeah, I think I made my point, but it came across blaagh, blaa, but if you paid attention blaa, to the small blaa, blaa, details, blaa bla bla, yeah, it makes sense bla, now blaa blaa if you look at it bla that way.
I'm glad I'm a smart person.
Now I'm so freaken confused cause he does say he is falling for someone but can't tell her just yet...now maybe it's cause I like the boy but I don't know if it's about me (which you all know I'm hoping for it to be true lol) or if it's about another girl...I mean we have been hanging out a lot at the clubs, we talk there and I like our conversations...we even had that little tango...as of late I have been looking uber hottie at the clubs. So yeah if it's about me YEA hurry up and tell me already and if it isn't oh well he still is my buddy and lucky bitch who managed to capture he's heart. Yeah like Spike said love is a funny thing it's also a bitch that's my two cents...later dayz
Anyway I'm totally and utterly confused...I went to myspace and it said someone posted a new blog which ended up being Caleb's the heading was Love...I really didn't want to read it just in case he mentioned who he was in love with but me being me I ended up opening it up anyway thinking hey maybe he's just gonna be talking about love I mean people do that I almost did this week but didn't....anyway this is what he wrote....
Love, love, love... It drives you crazy doesn't it. For those of us who have come out or are in understand the beginning of the depth of love. Being honest and truthful is wonderful. Unfortunately, I can't take my own medicine. Not yet, let me just lie a little bit. Actually, I'm stalling. The reason, it's not time for me to let love unfold itself. It's a strange predicament I find myself in, not being able to be honest on the outside. Yes, yell at me if you will, but you don't understand. See, I am being honest, because nothing but the truth has been found in these words. I can't run away with love yet, and those of you who know what I'm saying, we know how we feel and I feel for you for the reals. I have a deep crush that has moved my heart. I can't stop thinking and feeling for a passion that has found her way in my heart. She doesn't know, but it's not time yet. It's not my time to be rejected yet, ha. But I'll let her reject me, when she can reject me of her own free will. Blaa, bla, blaa, bla... This is all you hear right? Yeah, I think I made my point, but it came across blaagh, blaa, but if you paid attention blaa, to the small blaa, blaa, details, blaa bla bla, yeah, it makes sense bla, now blaa blaa if you look at it bla that way.
I'm glad I'm a smart person.
Now I'm so freaken confused cause he does say he is falling for someone but can't tell her just yet...now maybe it's cause I like the boy but I don't know if it's about me (which you all know I'm hoping for it to be true lol) or if it's about another girl...I mean we have been hanging out a lot at the clubs, we talk there and I like our conversations...we even had that little tango...as of late I have been looking uber hottie at the clubs. So yeah if it's about me YEA hurry up and tell me already and if it isn't oh well he still is my buddy and lucky bitch who managed to capture he's heart. Yeah like Spike said love is a funny thing it's also a bitch that's my two cents...later dayz