Shopping Takes Away The Blues
Well was bummed out that I couldn't go clubbing, my knee just felt so freaken weak...I went to king scooper pooper at like 11 pm and got me some knee braces cause i couldn't find my other ones...also got me a rainbow brite coloring book, an 80's crossword puzzle so cool. I watched Cinderella at home then started to watch Dracula damn I want that red dress Winona Ryder wears. Then I went to sleep woke up around 5am cause Simba was barking got up my mom was sleeping on the floor and joel was on the couch I swear that kid comes over and she has sleep overs shes like the male MJ. Anyway went back to bed had a lovely dream where I guess Caleb and I use to date but he had to go off to some country to be an artist well he actually is one but anyway there was a note he left for me but no one gave it to me and I found it and went looking for him and when I found him we kissed Ahhhhhhhh then I was like Caleb its time you meet your son, anyway I brought him to this baby car seat and our baby was there so apperently Caleb and I have a infant son in my dream but nice dream. Around 12 I was taking a shower and my parents started to argue upstairs in their room, joel was still asleep, it seems my mother missed an appointement she was suppose to go to because she was with joel and that pissed my stepdad off, maybe it was for counsaling, anyway he was like you need to get help, about time someone told her and she was going off saying how he doesnt spend time with the kids well let me see why because they are never home cause they are always at nettopia...anyway she was like blah blah, remember I was in the bath so I couldn't hear everything but then I heard him say something like so you're saying the kids love you better then me and she went off saying something like well we'll see when the kids stop talking to you, and I was so ready to shut and say mother two of your kids aren't talking to you...anyway she said something like I can't function living in this house with someone who isn't functioning himself which is pure bullshit cause my step dad hasn't changed if he has its cause of her poserness. Anyway I went down stairs and the retard was tying joels shoe for him and I went down and slammed my door and broke out into tears...errr I dislike my moms poserness she's ruining this family and isnt blamming herself, I'm amazed my step dad hasnt cheated on her, sad to say I would understand and wouldn't blame him if he did. At that moment I just needed to talk to a family memeber like my aunt but I couldn't so instead I got ready went to Flatirons and went shopping. My shopping limit was 200 bucks. I ate some Micky D's, went to Hot Topic couldnt exchange my pants cause the tag was off, so guess I got to lose some weight but I understand cause you never know if someone wore it which I didn't but I understand, anyway I sow this beautiful dress which I was dying to try on. It sort of looks like the dress from the Helena music video for My Chemical Romance...I couldn't stop staring at it along with this other dress. I tried this red dress first http://www.hottopic.com/store/product.asp?LS=0&M=146679744&ITEM=278888&RN=146 and it fit good so I decided to buy it then I tried on the other dress and was like Awwwwwww so pretty http://www.hottopic.com/store/Product.asp?LS=0&M=146679744&SKU=247697-005-2130-0000 so I bought it too and won't wear it till Halloween. I think I'll take my cape too cause I could put wings on but I don't want too...buying the dress made me so fucking happy so I have a smile on my face now. I also got me some more tights and some crospe bride stuff like the cd, some eyeshadow. I LOVE MY DRESS!!!!!!!!! I can't wait to wear it....I showed my sister and she was like oh my god its pretty and was like don't show ashleigh cause apperently ashleigh has been looking for the dress cause she wants to be helena for halloween but haha not no more I got the dress....go me go me...yes so shopping has made me happy.