Frustration...
Dammit. I can't win.
I am soooo fucking frustrated with living with my sister. I can't take it any more!! And yet, we have 5 more months on the lease. :|
Maybe it's just this place....I kept thinking. Maybe it's just that I have 2 jobs......Maybe it's just we don't have enough space....Maybe it's just too cluttered and stuff? Maybe I just get annoyed cuz I am not getting enough sleep?
....
Nope.
why should I take responsibility for this?
It's her!!!
I'm so fucking fed up with her attitude. Her "I don't have to tell you what's wrong" stuff, when oh, yeah---I was the one who have been there for you the WHOLE FUCKING TIME....yes, when you slit your arms to all hell and lied about it. when you had to go to the ER several times. When your dumbass so-called-boyfriend at the time I said I didn't like, and you just fucking didn't listen? Yeah...I've been here.
The WHOLE TIME....
and yes, you have been there for me, once in a while, Oh yeah--when you TAKE your med's. and Can focus on something other than you.
I don't know how much longer I can take this.
She's being a royal bitch!!
And..oh...what...I have to be sitting there GUESSING why you are such a bitch. Oh let's see? becuase you overdrafted your account TWICE with rent? Because you were too careless to go to the bank to deposit your money I gave you? because you had a check loan out and let it bounce? NMFP! (Not my fucking problem)
I TRIED to help you!
When I had money, oh, I get this, "I'm OK" or "I don't wanna talk about it"...over and over. Well fine, fuck you.
That's it...I'm buying a god damned house. And I'm doing it QUICKLY. I'm fucking tired of dealing with her shit.
Anyone know a place that is less than 20k for trailer homes? One out here?
Oh, and to top it off?
I buy DVD's all the time now, you know, to make up for all the things I lost when I left Vernal the first time? I've been so frustrated because every time I have something nice, it gets ripped out from under me. Especially DVD's!! because they just get mal-handled and thrown around and scratched the fuck up. Oh yeah!! And I haven't EVEN WATCHED THEM YET!!
Sooo....get this, I have my DVD's in a box packed from last year. She was all pissy cuz she was like, "So you know Connor (my nephew) wants to play that game of yours, why did you pack it?" ...Oh I dunno maybe I'm tired of fucking hearing "KAMEHAMEHA" every 5 seconds at 6 AM when I'm just trying to lie down? Or....maybe It's called go buy your fucking own? He purposely took MY memory card over to his daddy's and LOST IT, and not to mention the GH2 games that we were playing, we had 2 guitars...I had all songs 5 stars except 1 on MEDIUM...on the memory card and he LOST IT?? Asshole. What the fuck ever. I don't even have time to play the PS2 any more anyway....
And, atop that, the DVDs. Oh god....well, I love LOVE X-Files, Xena, and Heroes...they are my prized possessions, and I haven't barely watched 1 episode of all of them and I just got them about 3 months ago? Well....she goes and watches THEM ALL...without even asking me if she can open them? And Scott Pilgrim? I won that for doing an offsite massage event...my nephew goes and rips open the package without asking me again, and I VERY specifically stated I wanted to watch it first. He just rips it open and watches it!? WTF? I have no privacy!!
(So in revenge..or whatever, I downloaded lesbian porn that's going on a flash drive...haha....I think that may be why she's pissed but guess what it's none of her biz atm. Even if it is her PC.)
And lastly...god...I can't even have anyone over (to sleep with nonetheless) because, oh yeah!! I have roommates, that have virgin ears? And that get all pissy fitted because I open the door to try to wake them at 11 AM when your fucking alarm goes off? How about you just cut me some slack? I am soooo pissed off, cuz I want someone over. I want to sleep with someone......and I missed chance after chance after chance cuz people know I live with others, and when I get off work at 10:00 PM, oh yeah, I'm tired....or that's when my nephew comes over.....great....just what I need to explain to him, that I have a guy over, ha!
Soooo problem solved=getting new house on my OWN. She knows, I don't want to be here much longer..I don't even want to be IN this apartment....but she's throwing a bitch fit AGAIN because she thinks she owns the fucking world. I HATE living with women.......:| DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA!!!! God save me..the next girlfriend I find, well, she is gonna be DRAMA FREE.
Or..ya know, if I find a guy, that'd be grand too, but I'm most certainly not moving in with him!! Guys are sooo messy lol.
I am soooo fucking frustrated with living with my sister. I can't take it any more!! And yet, we have 5 more months on the lease. :|
Maybe it's just this place....I kept thinking. Maybe it's just that I have 2 jobs......Maybe it's just we don't have enough space....Maybe it's just too cluttered and stuff? Maybe I just get annoyed cuz I am not getting enough sleep?
....
Nope.
why should I take responsibility for this?
It's her!!!
I'm so fucking fed up with her attitude. Her "I don't have to tell you what's wrong" stuff, when oh, yeah---I was the one who have been there for you the WHOLE FUCKING TIME....yes, when you slit your arms to all hell and lied about it. when you had to go to the ER several times. When your dumbass so-called-boyfriend at the time I said I didn't like, and you just fucking didn't listen? Yeah...I've been here.
The WHOLE TIME....
and yes, you have been there for me, once in a while, Oh yeah--when you TAKE your med's. and Can focus on something other than you.
I don't know how much longer I can take this.
She's being a royal bitch!!
And..oh...what...I have to be sitting there GUESSING why you are such a bitch. Oh let's see? becuase you overdrafted your account TWICE with rent? Because you were too careless to go to the bank to deposit your money I gave you? because you had a check loan out and let it bounce? NMFP! (Not my fucking problem)
I TRIED to help you!
When I had money, oh, I get this, "I'm OK" or "I don't wanna talk about it"...over and over. Well fine, fuck you.
That's it...I'm buying a god damned house. And I'm doing it QUICKLY. I'm fucking tired of dealing with her shit.
Anyone know a place that is less than 20k for trailer homes? One out here?
Oh, and to top it off?
I buy DVD's all the time now, you know, to make up for all the things I lost when I left Vernal the first time? I've been so frustrated because every time I have something nice, it gets ripped out from under me. Especially DVD's!! because they just get mal-handled and thrown around and scratched the fuck up. Oh yeah!! And I haven't EVEN WATCHED THEM YET!!
Sooo....get this, I have my DVD's in a box packed from last year. She was all pissy cuz she was like, "So you know Connor (my nephew) wants to play that game of yours, why did you pack it?" ...Oh I dunno maybe I'm tired of fucking hearing "KAMEHAMEHA" every 5 seconds at 6 AM when I'm just trying to lie down? Or....maybe It's called go buy your fucking own? He purposely took MY memory card over to his daddy's and LOST IT, and not to mention the GH2 games that we were playing, we had 2 guitars...I had all songs 5 stars except 1 on MEDIUM...on the memory card and he LOST IT?? Asshole. What the fuck ever. I don't even have time to play the PS2 any more anyway....
And, atop that, the DVDs. Oh god....well, I love LOVE X-Files, Xena, and Heroes...they are my prized possessions, and I haven't barely watched 1 episode of all of them and I just got them about 3 months ago? Well....she goes and watches THEM ALL...without even asking me if she can open them? And Scott Pilgrim? I won that for doing an offsite massage event...my nephew goes and rips open the package without asking me again, and I VERY specifically stated I wanted to watch it first. He just rips it open and watches it!? WTF? I have no privacy!!
(So in revenge..or whatever, I downloaded lesbian porn that's going on a flash drive...haha....I think that may be why she's pissed but guess what it's none of her biz atm. Even if it is her PC.)
And lastly...god...I can't even have anyone over (to sleep with nonetheless) because, oh yeah!! I have roommates, that have virgin ears? And that get all pissy fitted because I open the door to try to wake them at 11 AM when your fucking alarm goes off? How about you just cut me some slack? I am soooo pissed off, cuz I want someone over. I want to sleep with someone......and I missed chance after chance after chance cuz people know I live with others, and when I get off work at 10:00 PM, oh yeah, I'm tired....or that's when my nephew comes over.....great....just what I need to explain to him, that I have a guy over, ha!
Soooo problem solved=getting new house on my OWN. She knows, I don't want to be here much longer..I don't even want to be IN this apartment....but she's throwing a bitch fit AGAIN because she thinks she owns the fucking world. I HATE living with women.......:| DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA!!!! God save me..the next girlfriend I find, well, she is gonna be DRAMA FREE.
Or..ya know, if I find a guy, that'd be grand too, but I'm most certainly not moving in with him!! Guys are sooo messy lol.