I am under construction - God is building
Alright so as some of you know, I am struggling to find my best friend and discovered that I am going through a dryspell which I knew all along. I feel as if His presence is starting to hang around me and it's awesome. I have so much more to tell Him. :)
So many changes, well okay, a few are going to take place. First, a different phone and plan. I've had AT&T for almost a year and I have 400 anytime, unlimited nights and weekends, and a simple nokia color phone that almost everyone has. Well the montly charge was $39.99 but they decided to jump it to $49.99 and considering I always text, I need a plan that is more like me. So I am getting that rearranged. I think I might end up going with T-Mobile. About $32 a month and so much more stuff on the plan. Thanks to Alan on the help with that.
Next, I am finally getting my teeth whitened. They so need, considering my teeth arn't naturally white. So it sucks. And I dont' have "perfect" fitting teeth as my ortho likes to say. I have this hairline gap (you can only see the small hairline gap upclose) in between my two front teeth. but from far away or talking distance away it looks like I have a bigger gap than I do. Well, that's how my teeth are shaped. So that's actually staright for my teeth and it sucks. Becasue .. well it looks like I can't get braces or something to fix it. So if you guys notice my gappy smile, nothing has changed in the last 4 months but I'm clearing it up for you all, it's just my teeth are like that. haha.
Then onto laser eye surgery. My dad asked me if I wanted to get it done. I thought he was joking but he seriously wasn't. I declined for 2 reasons. 1. God made the way I am..I was born with slightly bad vision...hehe and 2. NOONE IS ALLOWED TO MESS WITH MY EYES! haha. Plus, I mean I dont' think we really have $1,000+ sitting around the house for something I don't really need done. My dad doesn't do finances. Thats obvious. hehe.
Last but not least, I might be moving into my sister's room. Instead of my room I am hoping to leave the small room and go for the bigger room and since, sadly, my sister isn't here anymore, I might be moving in to her room. yay! I just have to convince my mom a little more..okay, a lot more.
Onto something else..I think I need a change of friends. Not all friends but the majority of them. Being 15 and growing up with guys that let their male organ talk for themselves..really sucks. Sometimes I jsut want to move so I can pick my friends again, the ones that are good and the ones that are not. So I have some friends that are all Godly which is what I love, it helps me focus on those things especially when I'm out hanging with people and not pay much attention to Him. Then there are some friends (guys) that do nothing but be perverted and talk about seducing me and beg for sex. I always just go along with it, joke around about it and talk freely of it. But really, sex isn't what society makes it be. Society says that sex is something you have with your girlfriend or boyfriend. But really, sex is a gift that God gives to us when we have found the one we love and is married. Like your virginity - it is your gift from Him that you give away only one time. But forawhile, I didn't give sex much thought. Just joked around and always knew I would never have sex before marriage but since I can be a real tease to guys..you would never know that I was holding out until marriage. I realize now that I just need to get away from the guys that are so perverted and guys that always joke about sex. That's not and should not be me anymore. It's not a Godly thing for me to do and I don't want to do that. I want to change my life in a way that everyone will be proud..not just me, not just my parents, not just my friends, but HIM! He will be so proud of me. I want to be this lady on fire for God and doesn't let people get to her. And once I have kids, I will be so involved in their lives that they won't like it - yet, still let them be independent. But go to church every Sunday and Wednesday. Marry a wonderful Christian husband and have a happy family. <- that's what I want. I don't want to be this woman that curses, that clowns around about sex, that is on the downside a lot, that lets other get to her, that just doesn't enjoy life as much as she should.
God is so awesome. I am under construction. He is the builder. I am so anxious for my changes becasue they changes that will only make me better. Oh man..the Lord is awesome...ahhhhhhhhhhhh *does happy dance* :)
So many changes, well okay, a few are going to take place. First, a different phone and plan. I've had AT&T for almost a year and I have 400 anytime, unlimited nights and weekends, and a simple nokia color phone that almost everyone has. Well the montly charge was $39.99 but they decided to jump it to $49.99 and considering I always text, I need a plan that is more like me. So I am getting that rearranged. I think I might end up going with T-Mobile. About $32 a month and so much more stuff on the plan. Thanks to Alan on the help with that.
Next, I am finally getting my teeth whitened. They so need, considering my teeth arn't naturally white. So it sucks. And I dont' have "perfect" fitting teeth as my ortho likes to say. I have this hairline gap (you can only see the small hairline gap upclose) in between my two front teeth. but from far away or talking distance away it looks like I have a bigger gap than I do. Well, that's how my teeth are shaped. So that's actually staright for my teeth and it sucks. Becasue .. well it looks like I can't get braces or something to fix it. So if you guys notice my gappy smile, nothing has changed in the last 4 months but I'm clearing it up for you all, it's just my teeth are like that. haha.
Then onto laser eye surgery. My dad asked me if I wanted to get it done. I thought he was joking but he seriously wasn't. I declined for 2 reasons. 1. God made the way I am..I was born with slightly bad vision...hehe and 2. NOONE IS ALLOWED TO MESS WITH MY EYES! haha. Plus, I mean I dont' think we really have $1,000+ sitting around the house for something I don't really need done. My dad doesn't do finances. Thats obvious. hehe.
Last but not least, I might be moving into my sister's room. Instead of my room I am hoping to leave the small room and go for the bigger room and since, sadly, my sister isn't here anymore, I might be moving in to her room. yay! I just have to convince my mom a little more..okay, a lot more.
Onto something else..I think I need a change of friends. Not all friends but the majority of them. Being 15 and growing up with guys that let their male organ talk for themselves..really sucks. Sometimes I jsut want to move so I can pick my friends again, the ones that are good and the ones that are not. So I have some friends that are all Godly which is what I love, it helps me focus on those things especially when I'm out hanging with people and not pay much attention to Him. Then there are some friends (guys) that do nothing but be perverted and talk about seducing me and beg for sex. I always just go along with it, joke around about it and talk freely of it. But really, sex isn't what society makes it be. Society says that sex is something you have with your girlfriend or boyfriend. But really, sex is a gift that God gives to us when we have found the one we love and is married. Like your virginity - it is your gift from Him that you give away only one time. But forawhile, I didn't give sex much thought. Just joked around and always knew I would never have sex before marriage but since I can be a real tease to guys..you would never know that I was holding out until marriage. I realize now that I just need to get away from the guys that are so perverted and guys that always joke about sex. That's not and should not be me anymore. It's not a Godly thing for me to do and I don't want to do that. I want to change my life in a way that everyone will be proud..not just me, not just my parents, not just my friends, but HIM! He will be so proud of me. I want to be this lady on fire for God and doesn't let people get to her. And once I have kids, I will be so involved in their lives that they won't like it - yet, still let them be independent. But go to church every Sunday and Wednesday. Marry a wonderful Christian husband and have a happy family. <- that's what I want. I don't want to be this woman that curses, that clowns around about sex, that is on the downside a lot, that lets other get to her, that just doesn't enjoy life as much as she should.
God is so awesome. I am under construction. He is the builder. I am so anxious for my changes becasue they changes that will only make me better. Oh man..the Lord is awesome...ahhhhhhhhhhhh *does happy dance* :)