A note to the boy I will never forget
Dear Boyinmydreams,
I don't know where I would be without you. You have taught me pain and you have taught me how to move on. I have always wanted that "once in a lifetime" chance with you but have never been successful in being good enough for you. I look forwarded talking to you all the time. The little text messages here and there, oh man you should see the smile you give me. You should feel the beats of my heart when I talk to you. You have probably made me cry more than you have made me smile but those are experiences I will never forget. They made me a stronger person than who I once was. You were my first heartbreak, maybe that is something to be proud about? I don't know. I have always been here for you even when you wanted my best friend. I must be a pretty good friend, huh? Though through all of this we have a real good bond. So I think. I can only hope that you think the same. You have been the only guy that I have thought about for so long. You were my first boy to ever have a real connection with that has lasted this long. Though I may never get a chance to be with you and I am quite aware of that, I still find hope and push my strong feelings to the side when i am talking to you. I love just being there for you. I like that you fall back onto me if you need advice though you seem to be a real happy kid. And even when I am joking around and calling myself beautiful (hehe) you do nothing but agree. Even if you didn't mean it, it still ment something to me. When I saw you on a special occasion hanging out with another chick and ditching me for her, I spent my days wondering what I did wrong - but I knew there was nothing I can do. I got over that. Still, I haven't left you. Have you not though about how I have been through all this drama with you and yet I am STILL by your side. Just the thought that you have been set on my heart for so many years, I wouldn't call it love, I don't believe in it at our age but I would sure say it means something. You are the only boy that sends my heart racing so fast. One of these days I want to be the lucky girl that says, "he is mine!" and be in your arms and until that day comes, I will be here for you always. And if we NEVER take it to the next level, I will still be here for you. And if we do take it to the next level and it doesn't work out, you know what? I will STILL be there for you. You are amazing, I just hope that you know that. And when you have those days that you think you are a loser because such and such people arn't talking to you, think of me, talk to me, and know that I am here for you 24/7. You are the boy in my dreams and it will always stay that way. I know I probably am not that girl for you, but I don't care. As much as it hurts to see you, if ever, with another girl, again I say .. Count on me always. And as this rain falls outside, I think of you. I think of you by my side telling me that you will never hurt me, telling me that I am your beautiful girl. I think of you always...
I love you. I don't know what I would do without having you in my life. Thanks for making a stronger person.
Love Always,
Kasey
I don't know where I would be without you. You have taught me pain and you have taught me how to move on. I have always wanted that "once in a lifetime" chance with you but have never been successful in being good enough for you. I look forwarded talking to you all the time. The little text messages here and there, oh man you should see the smile you give me. You should feel the beats of my heart when I talk to you. You have probably made me cry more than you have made me smile but those are experiences I will never forget. They made me a stronger person than who I once was. You were my first heartbreak, maybe that is something to be proud about? I don't know. I have always been here for you even when you wanted my best friend. I must be a pretty good friend, huh? Though through all of this we have a real good bond. So I think. I can only hope that you think the same. You have been the only guy that I have thought about for so long. You were my first boy to ever have a real connection with that has lasted this long. Though I may never get a chance to be with you and I am quite aware of that, I still find hope and push my strong feelings to the side when i am talking to you. I love just being there for you. I like that you fall back onto me if you need advice though you seem to be a real happy kid. And even when I am joking around and calling myself beautiful (hehe) you do nothing but agree. Even if you didn't mean it, it still ment something to me. When I saw you on a special occasion hanging out with another chick and ditching me for her, I spent my days wondering what I did wrong - but I knew there was nothing I can do. I got over that. Still, I haven't left you. Have you not though about how I have been through all this drama with you and yet I am STILL by your side. Just the thought that you have been set on my heart for so many years, I wouldn't call it love, I don't believe in it at our age but I would sure say it means something. You are the only boy that sends my heart racing so fast. One of these days I want to be the lucky girl that says, "he is mine!" and be in your arms and until that day comes, I will be here for you always. And if we NEVER take it to the next level, I will still be here for you. And if we do take it to the next level and it doesn't work out, you know what? I will STILL be there for you. You are amazing, I just hope that you know that. And when you have those days that you think you are a loser because such and such people arn't talking to you, think of me, talk to me, and know that I am here for you 24/7. You are the boy in my dreams and it will always stay that way. I know I probably am not that girl for you, but I don't care. As much as it hurts to see you, if ever, with another girl, again I say .. Count on me always. And as this rain falls outside, I think of you. I think of you by my side telling me that you will never hurt me, telling me that I am your beautiful girl. I think of you always...
I love you. I don't know what I would do without having you in my life. Thanks for making a stronger person.
Love Always,
Kasey