just give me once chance, i swear i'll make everything right
tonight was pretty good, it was ericks 19th b-day so we had a little party. if only my secret love would have showed up :-x. Well if you wanna read some pansy venting from me keep reading, if not, then stop right here. Tonight hit me pretty hard with something, it made me realize just how important some little things are in my life. like when i see this girl's mouth widen into a smile, i want to be the reason she is smiling... Its just weird how something so small, such as ones smile, can just be the one thing that makes you feel so much better. Its been about a year since me and %$^%$ broke up and yea...goddamn i shouldnt be saying this just cause i should let go of these things but i just remembered one night i was at %$^^%$'s house and she was on the phone and i heard her friend go "when are you going to tell him you love him." now that shit will bring you the hell down.. i miss those feelings like crazy. God, i would love to be the first thing on your mind when you wake up, or just the one you turn to when everything is rough. I'd rip my damn heart out of my chest just to impress you . But it appears that i'm coming up short... and its not like shes ever going to read this but man...I'd give anything to have that feeling of being wanted again, nothing can compare to it, apparently i dont have enough to give to get it again. maybe someday my luck will change. just give me once chance, i swear i'll make everything right