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[forever_cannons]

I hate black eyes.

I hate being useless.

I hate my Sight.

I hate everything.

And I really, really, really, really hate knowing something that makes no sense.

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[the_boy_who]

Look, I'm sorry I hit you.

You really just need to learn when to shut up sometimes though, Ron.

[forever_cannons]

Yeah, and I'm not the only one.

[the_boy_who]

Okay, you try being me for a day and see how optimistic you can be, right? Just try it. I don't LIKE feeling like this but what the hell do you expect? My life has been crap. It's always crap. It never gets any better and when it does it just gets crap again. Someone dies or something gets attacked or whatever. Someone lies to me, people are ALWAYS bloody lying to me and I am really fucking sick of it. So yeah, you try feeling like that even one day and then maybe you'll understand that after sixteen YEARS I can't be so cheerful about things. I don't know HOW. And every time I AM cheerful something HAPPENS.

I'm afraid if I hope for something it will never happen or something even worse will happen. Don't you understand that?

[forever_cannons]

Yeah. I'll be you for a day, and hit my best mate for just trying to hope that maybe things will end up being better than they are right now. Since right now they bloody REEK.

But right, I don't understand how hard it is for you. Probably shouldn't even try to help. Only have two eyes after all.

[the_boy_who]

Well then you do all the hoping and I'll just try not to get myself or anyone else killed or tortured, okay?

Just don't TELL me about it all the time.

[forever_cannons]

I won't be telling you much, don't worry about that.

[the_boy_who]

Ron.

[forever_cannons]

That's me. You know, the guy you hit.

[the_boy_who]

I'm sorry.

You were there. That's all. I'd have hit you if you were Seamus or Neville or even Lupin.

I needed to hit something.

[forever_cannons]

So you hit me.

I understand.

You're having a bad day. Life. Whatever.

[the_boy_who]

Ron.

[the_boy_who]

Why are you always such a prat?

Everything you say is sarcastic anymore.

[the_boy_who]

Oh, I give up. Let me know when the real Ron Weasley comes back to Hogwarts. This one's a git.

[forever_cannons]

I AM TRYING TO HELP YOU. ALL THE TIME. Don't you get that?

Look. I'm sorry. I know it's hardest on you right now.

But I don't know what to say.

[the_boy_who]

Just stop acting like everything's going to get better. You don't know that, even if you are a Seer. You don't help me by pretending everything's going to go away. It just makes me feel worse because it's like you haven't even been paying attention for the last six years.

It doesn't go away.

It's him, or me. You know that. But it's like you don't care sometimes.

[forever_cannons]

Like I don't care?

I don't know how else to deal with it. I can't close off like you do. I can't.

I'm sorry that I made you feel like punching me was the only way to make me see it then.