While discussing eyebrows... I have come to a conclusion...
I have come to the realization that my little philosophy wont work no matter how hard I try to make it so, its just not he way things are meant to be. I have always thought if you dont posess a certain trait you wish to, work up to it, if you are a certain way you are unhappy with, change for the better, just make yourself happy... however I have been performing both of these.... I dunno what to call them "ideas"? And have come to find it has just bitten me in the ass. There are many things that I am not that I wish I were and have been trying to be, b/c I see it makes me happy and I want it to be apart of who I am. As complicated as all of this is, I am not being anything but who I am , so posing id out of the question... anyhow back to what I was saying... I have been trying to do some things I am just NOT meant to do, by fate it is appearnt for my trials have been so unsucessful I am going to take a diff route. Its mostly accredited to people, me giving up and all. They have either ignored me or bashed me one or another. People claim to love me but fail majorly when it comes to showing it. Someone has to give a fuck dont they? They say no one can love you if you do not love your self, I use to think that is bull shit and believe the exact opposite of that statement, and this is where its gotten me.... NOWHERE, so now the question is... How do I love myself? I never have. I leaves me thinking again, why cant things be easy for me? Why cant I be like everyone else, while its not very origional, it makes more sense. All of this is bull shit.... Me not know... Jackul lynn just shit in the floor... Greattt......