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Not much happened today, did some freestyling with the black kids in math lol. And came home and did a few things around the house, I am going to megans saturday, we made plans for me to come over friday but my mom is being a cunt so Ill have to see if I can still talk her into it. Umm... nto much really going on, something has changed I can feel it in the small of my mind, I feel sane again.. he he he....
One thing is kind of bothering me but its not at the same time. I know that all I can do is act b/c words are irrelevant. I can understand half of it but the other half is rediculous. I dont mean to sound careless but from another perspective everything is rediculous, so all I can do is sit and watch. That is what I do, I am a watcher, I wait to react to things so I know how I want to react, but sometimes I react too soon without thinking everything over, and that has led me to some disaster in the past... But at any rate, I will just keep my steady ground, that is all I wish to do right now....
So blinded by fear..... It keeps you here, in your own trap, you plague yourself, all is wrong unless all is well..... Selfish..shallow...insecure....angry....lost...hypocritical... hysterical... It all makes more sense than you think it does....clouded by what you think you know.... wow, all of that jusdt flew right from my fingertips, not even thikning I just wrote it out, I am beginning to wonder are those my thots? I find myself questioning that more often latley, but now thast I read it it just sounds like something amy lee would write, he he... At any rate Im going to go and skip... But one more thing, and this is addressive, OPEN...