confessions.
this ain't lust, i know this is love, but if i tell the world i'll never say enough because it was not said to you, and thats exactly what i need to do. manage me, i'm a mess. turn a page, i'm a book, half unread. well i always said don't mind me, but your love always seems to find me. it's always creeping up behind me. he's a brick and i'm drowning slowly. remember those walls i built ? well baby they're tumbling down. they didn't even put up a fight, they didn't even make a sound. i found a way to let you in, but i never really had a doubt. ever since i've known i've wanted to tell you that i've decided we're the next best thing to bonnie and clyde. whatever we want, we'll do everything. like a river meets the sea, stronger than it's ever been. we've come so far since that day. and i thought i loved you then. i feel very passionate about italian food, in fact, i'm in love with italian food. i'm not sure what the trouble was that started all of this. the reasons all have run away, but the feelings never did. please, i'll be strong. i've been finding you hard to resist. so show me what i'm looking for. i am trying not to tell you, but i want to. i'm scared of what you'll say. so i'm hiding what i'm feeling. but i'm tired of holding this inside my head. this is for the record, because i've been holding back too long. if the silence takes you, then i hope it takes me too. some things we don't talk about. would rather do without, and just hold a smile. falling in and out of love, ashamed yet proud of, together all the while. there are certain people you just keep coming back to, he is right in front of you. could you whipser in my ear the things you want to feel ? i'd give you anything to feel it coming. well i've been lost and i need direction, i could use a little love protection. what do you say baby ? come to my defence. blue would still be blue, but things would be easier with you. i swear to god this mix could sink the sun, but it was you i was thinking of. and i've got spun, it appears you're spun as well. it happens when you're paying attention. well this could take all year, but when it's quiet, does he hear me ? adjacent to the center of the storm. and i'm thinking i'd prefer not to be rescued. she can't fall if you're not there to catch her. i tried my best to be guarded, but i'm an open book instead. i am here still waiting, though i still have my doubts. i am damaged at best, like you've already figured out. and under the gun, you're like the only one, i just can't decide what i'm running from. you make the darkness disappear, i feel found when you stand near. i know where i am when you are here. my way becomes so clear. everyones around, no words are coming now. and i can't find my breath, can we just say the rest with no sound ? and i do want you know i hold you up above everyone. and i do want you know i think you'd be good to me, and i'd be so good to you. i touch you once, i touch you twice. i won't let go at any price. i need you now like i needed you then, you always said we'd still be friends someday. i've gone too long living like i'm not alive, so i'm gonna start over tonight, beginning with you and i. pedal to the floor, thinking of you more, gotta get us to the shore. california here we come, right back where we started from. if your lost, you can look and you will find me, time after time. just everyday people, searching for something we've already found. all because of you i believe in angels, not the kind with wings, no not the kind with halos. the kind that bring you hope when home becomes a strange place. i'll follow your voice, all you have to do is shout it out. are we getting closer or are we just getting more lost ? i'll show you mine if you show me yours first. lets compare scars, i'll tell whose is worse. let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words. see the months, they don't matter. its the days i can't take. when the hours move to minutes, and i'm seconds away. just ask the question, come untie the knot. say you won't care. if you could see that i'm the one who understands you, i've been here all along. so why can't you see ? he stands there, then walks away. my god if i could only say; i'm holding every breath for you. he'd never tell you, but he can play guitar. i think he can see through everything but my heart. first thought when i wake up, is my god he's beautiful. so i put on my makeup, and pray for a miracle. i'm still unsure how you've done this, but here you are. you're on your way into my heart, if you don't start slowing down. i saw it coming from the start, but i wonder. jack will you call me if you're able ? i've got your phone number written in the back of my bible.