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its hard to define the exact things im feeling now... i dont know what i want to do with my life anymore and i dont know if i derserve anything that certain people feel for me. i hate being inbetween things and not knowing exacly whats going to happen. but then noone ever really knows what going to happen in the future. i really hate that ive upset so many people in the past month and that so much has changed. i mean i like not living at home but i think things have changed dramaticly and i feel like i have no emotions anymore.. is that bad?? sometimes i just dont care and i dont know why.. i feel like im going to lose everything that i know i need and i know i used to feel so strongly about making work.. but now.. i just dont know...