what a week so far......
well monday night my mom and i were argueing about money and stuff and she wanted to look in my purse so she could see how much money i had.... which was alot more then she knew.. but she also found my condoms and my cig's... it was horrible!! the wier dthing was that she gave it all back to me. she said she gave the cig's back because i'm 18 and i'll end up doing it anyways no matter what she says and if i want to kill my self then "go ahead"..and she said she gave me the condoms back because even though she doesn't want me to be doing that she at least knows im being safe about it and then she said "but i don't have to welcome sean into my house". which really upset me because i've tried so hard to make them like him so i could be with him... so i asked her if this ment that i wasn't going to be able to see him anymore and she said no because she can't prevent me from doing it because i'd go behind her back and do it anyway.. which i probably would... ummm lets see what else did she say... Oh! she said the only reason she wasn't going to kick me out(even though she should) was because she wanted me to graduate. Which probably means as soon as i graduate i'll have to leave. But im not a stupid person, all the time,if she would of kicked me out i know at least 3 places i could of gone... seans, vamessa's and maybe ed's if he was serious that one day we talked about it online. But what i mean by not being stupid is that even if she would of kicked me out i would of still gone to school. its pointless to drop out in your senior year.. why a lot of people i know are doing it is beowned me... but i would definately still go to school...
its wierd how everything changes so much as you get older... and i hate change but its unstopable sometimes.. but another thing on my mind is my dad.. im not as upset as i was. i care that he just basicly disowned me for no reason.. i've just realized that he's a liar and i can't really do anything to make him change. no matter how much i want him to. but i think in someways im kinda like him,probably b/c thats basicly what my mom said to me monday night. but he smokes, i smoke. he lies, i lie... and other small things... but the difference between us is that _______... idk. i know that the only people i lie to are my parents(my mom and donnie). i never lie to sean or vanessa or dan or ANY of my other friends... i trust my friends more then my family... is so that bad?!?! my mom doesn't understand why but i just Cant talk to her and tell her the things i can tell my friends and sean. it sux when you can't tell your own mother how you really feel.
but idk i love my mom and my dad... i just wish somethings about their personalities was different. idk
but anyways on tuesday my friend joey spilt my milk all over me.. it looked like i pissed my pants. then on the way to class to tell my teacher i was going to the clinic i stepped in gum... then i had to sit it the bathroom for like 15-20 minutes without any pants on while my b.f vanessa tried to dry them under the hand dryer... it sorda worked but i ended up smelling like milk for the last 2 periods of school. then on my way up the bus stairs i tripped and hit myself in the face withmy pepsi bottle... what a day... WHAT A WIERD WIERD WEEK!!!
its wierd how everything changes so much as you get older... and i hate change but its unstopable sometimes.. but another thing on my mind is my dad.. im not as upset as i was. i care that he just basicly disowned me for no reason.. i've just realized that he's a liar and i can't really do anything to make him change. no matter how much i want him to. but i think in someways im kinda like him,probably b/c thats basicly what my mom said to me monday night. but he smokes, i smoke. he lies, i lie... and other small things... but the difference between us is that _______... idk. i know that the only people i lie to are my parents(my mom and donnie). i never lie to sean or vanessa or dan or ANY of my other friends... i trust my friends more then my family... is so that bad?!?! my mom doesn't understand why but i just Cant talk to her and tell her the things i can tell my friends and sean. it sux when you can't tell your own mother how you really feel.
but idk i love my mom and my dad... i just wish somethings about their personalities was different. idk
but anyways on tuesday my friend joey spilt my milk all over me.. it looked like i pissed my pants. then on the way to class to tell my teacher i was going to the clinic i stepped in gum... then i had to sit it the bathroom for like 15-20 minutes without any pants on while my b.f vanessa tried to dry them under the hand dryer... it sorda worked but i ended up smelling like milk for the last 2 periods of school. then on my way up the bus stairs i tripped and hit myself in the face withmy pepsi bottle... what a day... WHAT A WIERD WIERD WEEK!!!