Everyone always blames me for everything that goes wrong!
Yah that's true. An old friend that I haven't had any contact w/ for abt a year suddenly came to see me at work. I was so shocked, thought I saw a ghost. She told me that a tornado hit her life last yr n her parents don't like me because they think that I was a bad influence on her. She was dating this 1 guy and he abused her and he also made up some crap abt me n told her parents bla bla bla....This also happened a few times in high school since then I've avoided getting involved w/ any Bengali friend's love life. Actually I only have 2/3 Bengali friends. So after hearing that I'm like "WTF?" I was gonna flip out n scream but I couldn't coz I was at work. See this is what I don't understand why do Bengali parents always think that their daughter's behavior (dating someone/sleeping w/ someone) is Mou's fault? What the hell? Don't these girls got brains? You can lead a horse to water but can't make the horse drink it, right? Then why the fuck do I get blamed for stupid shit like that when I had absoulutely nothing to do w/ it and in most cases I actually did the opposite (told them not to date desi guys or date at all)?
All day I was angry! It totally set the mood for the rest of my day. I was freaking out.
I think it's time to get drunk w/ Biha again like we did 2 weeks ago n juss take out the yearbook n point to ppl's pics n say "this one's a bitch!" "hated her/him". High school was a miserable experience for me. I will not let my kids go thru that kind of an experience. I'll make sure they go to a school where Bengalis don't exist. I fucking hate Bengalis here. I wish they'd all die and leave me alone!!
Calming down.....Listening to Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway album always makes me feel good. Kevin and I really don't get to hang out like we used to. I miss that. Running into Oz was weird today. He said that I avoid him. I do NOT! He just scares me w/ his freakish looking accessories -- "will i hurt myself if i hugged him?"
I wish winter would go away. I'm so sick of this weather. :-(
All day I was angry! It totally set the mood for the rest of my day. I was freaking out.
I think it's time to get drunk w/ Biha again like we did 2 weeks ago n juss take out the yearbook n point to ppl's pics n say "this one's a bitch!" "hated her/him". High school was a miserable experience for me. I will not let my kids go thru that kind of an experience. I'll make sure they go to a school where Bengalis don't exist. I fucking hate Bengalis here. I wish they'd all die and leave me alone!!
Calming down.....Listening to Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway album always makes me feel good. Kevin and I really don't get to hang out like we used to. I miss that. Running into Oz was weird today. He said that I avoid him. I do NOT! He just scares me w/ his freakish looking accessories -- "will i hurt myself if i hugged him?"
I wish winter would go away. I'm so sick of this weather. :-(