it's been a long time
so... i know it's been a long time since i've updated... i haven't really been online a whole lot this summer... i've had some very crazy times... good and not so good... so up until like a week ago... i had been sober like 10 days since may 3rd... not that im an alcoholic or a drug addict or anything... i just like to party... but it kinda has been getting me into a lil bit of trouble... i almost broke my nose a month ago cuz i got really shitty drunk... was runnin to the bathroom and i slipped and fell... hit my nose on a desk and then hit my eye on the shelf of the desk... so now i have a scar above my eye... u can't really see it too much... but eh... oh well... i have had some other not so good times as well... but i wont get into that... i have had some amazing times tho... god... some great times... parties almost every night with my closest friends... yay... except for the time my mom's lap top got stolen... not cool... it was a very good time up until then... needless to say... haven't had anyone over there since then...
my friend... well... i have to admit he's a lil bit more than a friend... came back from iraq a few weeks ago (yes, he's in the army)... we had great times... partying and just spending quality time together... he went back to iraq last thursday... i am still very upset about it... he doesn't come back til like december... but i have talked to him almost every day since then... so... i hope that when he comes back we can like officially start dating... yay... lol...
and my other friend... who is in the army reserve band... left for AT, some type of army training shit, last friday... i spent like everyday with this kid since i've been back from school... i miss him soooo much... he's like my best friend... he wont come back til next saturday... and then he's leaving for indiana for a few weeks to work w/ his grandpa... he might actually stay up there cuz he got a job offer... this hurts me A LOT... im going to miss him terribly if he ends up staying up there... but at least i will get to see him next weekend... yay... and he is coming up for a party tomorrow at my other friends house... these two friends and i... we're all really close... our little trio... yay...
ok... so i have been trying to stay clean... i've not drank hardly at all for a whole entire week... that's really really good for me... going from drinking everyday to not drinking... woot! and i haven't smoked since sunday... i have to stay away from that tho... cuz im going to try and do the army reserve band... can't have "dirty" piss when i enlist or i wont get in... go to basic this semester and be back by december so i can go back to school in the spring... too bad my dad and brother are the only ones that think it is a bad idea for me to go... but u know what... im tired of trying to please other people... it's my life... and i am going to do what i think is best for me... and i think this will be really good for me... i haven't told my dad that i want to leave so soon tho... he's gunna flip... oh well... he's gunna find out tomorrow... im chicken shit and am makin my mom talk to him first... haha...
shit... i really need to practice cuz my audition w/ the army reserve band is sometime next week... eek... i haven't really played since i've been back from school... i better get on it... only have a week to prepare...
ok... i think im done w/ this entry... that's sort of updating you all w/ my life...
i will leave you all with this:
have you ever been in a crowded room full of people... and felt completely alone?
my friend... well... i have to admit he's a lil bit more than a friend... came back from iraq a few weeks ago (yes, he's in the army)... we had great times... partying and just spending quality time together... he went back to iraq last thursday... i am still very upset about it... he doesn't come back til like december... but i have talked to him almost every day since then... so... i hope that when he comes back we can like officially start dating... yay... lol...
and my other friend... who is in the army reserve band... left for AT, some type of army training shit, last friday... i spent like everyday with this kid since i've been back from school... i miss him soooo much... he's like my best friend... he wont come back til next saturday... and then he's leaving for indiana for a few weeks to work w/ his grandpa... he might actually stay up there cuz he got a job offer... this hurts me A LOT... im going to miss him terribly if he ends up staying up there... but at least i will get to see him next weekend... yay... and he is coming up for a party tomorrow at my other friends house... these two friends and i... we're all really close... our little trio... yay...
ok... so i have been trying to stay clean... i've not drank hardly at all for a whole entire week... that's really really good for me... going from drinking everyday to not drinking... woot! and i haven't smoked since sunday... i have to stay away from that tho... cuz im going to try and do the army reserve band... can't have "dirty" piss when i enlist or i wont get in... go to basic this semester and be back by december so i can go back to school in the spring... too bad my dad and brother are the only ones that think it is a bad idea for me to go... but u know what... im tired of trying to please other people... it's my life... and i am going to do what i think is best for me... and i think this will be really good for me... i haven't told my dad that i want to leave so soon tho... he's gunna flip... oh well... he's gunna find out tomorrow... im chicken shit and am makin my mom talk to him first... haha...
shit... i really need to practice cuz my audition w/ the army reserve band is sometime next week... eek... i haven't really played since i've been back from school... i better get on it... only have a week to prepare...
ok... i think im done w/ this entry... that's sort of updating you all w/ my life...
i will leave you all with this:
have you ever been in a crowded room full of people... and felt completely alone?