What to say
Lately I've been feeling increasingly constrained in talking. I don't know exactly why, but I feel as if I'm being misunderstood or shot down by other people more frequently than usual. This makes me more stiff and unwilling to say anything that might express an opinion in order to avoid conflicts. However, this also has the effect of interfering with relationships. I wish I could speak more to Eugenia. Sometimes I feel my subconscious is holding me down and not letting me speak easily anymore. It isn't like last year when I felt I could socialize and have fun at it. Now I seem to feel better when I'm keeping opinions to myself and avoiding problems. I hope I haven't regressed socially this quarter, but it sure feels like it. I just want to go back to the days when I could speak freely again.