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Have you ever had a feeling when you were just sitting down and suddenly you felt like you were gonna die, and instantly you think of everyone you left unhappy. It's a horrible feeling, you have no control and your only emotion is pain, you think of friends family and every one you can that you might have been a small been mean to and you feel like you've been a monster. It leaves you in a state where you can't get enough of any one you see, and your incredibly generous and loving, I guess it's bitter sweet.