watching anime and and liking the fashion and taking intro language classes does not make you asian. it does not make asians respect you or accept you as their own
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I was originally going to make a post out of this, but decided to go against it because I really am sincere and I want you guys to understand where I am coming from.
Okay soo.... my feelings are a little bit hurt because of I guess the way you two see me, or the way I come off. It especially saddens me because it affects people of the asian community, the very community I am obssesed with learning about.
But I do want to say this. Just because I post constantly about liking asian men and asian this and asian that, does not mean that I am not aware or do not care about the asian struggle politcally and historically. I mean when is anything I say ever really serious? only about 5% of the time.
It makes me angry to think that I, a person who has been opressed in several ways, could be insensitive to the feelings of another opressed culture. But I want you two to know that Yes I do love asian men, asian music, asian tv shows, and asian movies. But that is not all there is to it. I also participate in Asian awareness events. Right now I am working with my AASA to get an asian american class taught at BSU. I am also working on getting an Asian newsletter started as well as trying to promote activism on the Ball State Campus. And I mean..I'm not tryign to just throw stuff out there to make myself feel better or seem right, but just because I don't mention something in my livejournal doesn't mean it's not happening. Do not take my light heartedness on Livejournal as the way that I am all the time.
I wish I had your e-mails so I didn't have to do this over livejournal. But I do want to apologize if you think what I have been saying or doing is wrong. It's just that I am at a place where I have finally found a group of people that I connect with (not asians in general...I mean members of AASA) and Also I am finally in a place where I can explore a culture that has been pretty much unreachable to me. SO yes I am going to go overboard, yes I may offend people on accident, but never will I ever be as shallow as I seem. If that makes sense. I talk about boys all the time. Would these comments even be here if I said that I hoped I met some hott boys at the conference? No. And I say stuff like that all the time. Why is it different now. Nothing has changed.
Look. I don't even know what I'm trying to say anymore. I just know that what you guys said hurt me. And I will try and take a closer look at what i say and do and how it might offend people. But I am not just some random asian fanatic who goes around buying everything asian he see's. I do also study things and ask questions about culture and try and learn about people.
Don't think less of me because of what I seem to be.
Also on another note. I didn't originally think you meant this post to be directed to me but now I am thinkign otherwise. Anyways..
Just so you know:
- I am majoring in Japanese so I will be taking a culture and history class
- I don't talk about anime with people who don't like anime
- I don't speak in japanese to people. Because I will sound stupid and I am always worried my japanese will sound bad or be wrong.
- I realize that liking the asian culture will not make me asian. Nor will I ever be asian. I wish I was lucky enough to be. But I'm not. I accept that.
- I know that asians were in internment camps. I witness hate crimes against asians on a nearly daily basis. So don't just assume that I am some clueless moron.
I'm not saying that you think any of these things. I just want you to know more about me, since apparently you don't know where I stand most of these issues. I just hate being thrown into the "otaku" category.
I hope your not mad at me from these comments. I still heart you and miss you bunches.
Okay soo.... my feelings are a little bit hurt because of I guess the way you two see me, or the way I come off. It especially saddens me because it affects people of the asian community, the very community I am obssesed with learning about.
But I do want to say this. Just because I post constantly about liking asian men and asian this and asian that, does not mean that I am not aware or do not care about the asian struggle politcally and historically. I mean when is anything I say ever really serious? only about 5% of the time.
It makes me angry to think that I, a person who has been opressed in several ways, could be insensitive to the feelings of another opressed culture. But I want you two to know that Yes I do love asian men, asian music, asian tv shows, and asian movies. But that is not all there is to it. I also participate in Asian awareness events. Right now I am working with my AASA to get an asian american class taught at BSU. I am also working on getting an Asian newsletter started as well as trying to promote activism on the Ball State Campus. And I mean..I'm not tryign to just throw stuff out there to make myself feel better or seem right, but just because I don't mention something in my livejournal doesn't mean it's not happening. Do not take my light heartedness on Livejournal as the way that I am all the time.
I wish I had your e-mails so I didn't have to do this over livejournal. But I do want to apologize if you think what I have been saying or doing is wrong. It's just that I am at a place where I have finally found a group of people that I connect with (not asians in general...I mean members of AASA) and Also I am finally in a place where I can explore a culture that has been pretty much unreachable to me. SO yes I am going to go overboard, yes I may offend people on accident, but never will I ever be as shallow as I seem. If that makes sense. I talk about boys all the time. Would these comments even be here if I said that I hoped I met some hott boys at the conference? No. And I say stuff like that all the time. Why is it different now. Nothing has changed.
Look. I don't even know what I'm trying to say anymore. I just know that what you guys said hurt me. And I will try and take a closer look at what i say and do and how it might offend people. But I am not just some random asian fanatic who goes around buying everything asian he see's. I do also study things and ask questions about culture and try and learn about people.
Don't think less of me because of what I seem to be.
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Just so you know:
- I am majoring in Japanese so I will be taking a culture and history class
- I don't talk about anime with people who don't like anime
- I don't speak in japanese to people. Because I will sound stupid and I am always worried my japanese will sound bad or be wrong.
- I realize that liking the asian culture will not make me asian. Nor will I ever be asian. I wish I was lucky enough to be. But I'm not. I accept that.
- I know that asians were in internment camps. I witness hate crimes against asians on a nearly daily basis. So don't just assume that I am some clueless moron.
I'm not saying that you think any of these things. I just want you to know more about me, since apparently you don't know where I stand most of these issues. I just hate being thrown into the "otaku" category.
I hope your not mad at me from these comments. I still heart you and miss you bunches.
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But I take back everything I said. Whatever.
I'm sorry if what I've said in my journals offends you. End of story. I love you. Sorry.
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