We'll Just Call it a Stress-Orgy
The Human Jaw
A jaw with TMJ/My jaw
I have had Temporomandibular Joint problems since October - yes since the October in 2009. Since TMJ and I got to know each other more personally - let me say this:
It is a bitch of all bitches. I forget what it's even like to relax my jaw. It feels as if someone is pulling at the muscles and making my face impossible to relax. It snaps, crackles, and pops each time I move it and it just pisses me off so much I want to scream - yet I can't - because that would hurt my jaw.
During the summer it noticeably got worse for this one reason: STRESS.
Now at my home - I am constantly stressed (mainly from my sister and my mother) , and unlike my sister when she gets upset she usually takes her anger on me - and I bottle that anger in = STRESS. And whenever I am pissed I don't really like resorting to violence so I bottle up that anger which = STRESS.
And since my Junior year has started - I am already STRESSed out and my mother hasn't been making this too better for me.
Today my TMJ was at it's worse - with full effect: back pains, neck pains, shoulder pains, STRESS, and more than anything jaw pains. So I told it to my mother as straight as it is: My sister causes me STRESS, School causes me STRESS, and you are causing me STRESS. Now - as I expected - she is ignoring me and not talking to me - which even though helps ease away the STRESS - I now feel GUILTY. Get the picture?
The only hope I have to get my TMJ fixed is to go to Los Angeles and pay 5,000 dollars for a surgery that may or may not work. It blows.
SoB to the next level of SoB. Oh - and I can't speak for today, tomorrow, the day after that and the day after that :P
Adios.
A jaw with TMJ/My jaw
I have had Temporomandibular Joint problems since October - yes since the October in 2009. Since TMJ and I got to know each other more personally - let me say this:
It is a bitch of all bitches. I forget what it's even like to relax my jaw. It feels as if someone is pulling at the muscles and making my face impossible to relax. It snaps, crackles, and pops each time I move it and it just pisses me off so much I want to scream - yet I can't - because that would hurt my jaw.
During the summer it noticeably got worse for this one reason: STRESS.
Now at my home - I am constantly stressed (mainly from my sister and my mother) , and unlike my sister when she gets upset she usually takes her anger on me - and I bottle that anger in = STRESS. And whenever I am pissed I don't really like resorting to violence so I bottle up that anger which = STRESS.
And since my Junior year has started - I am already STRESSed out and my mother hasn't been making this too better for me.
Today my TMJ was at it's worse - with full effect: back pains, neck pains, shoulder pains, STRESS, and more than anything jaw pains. So I told it to my mother as straight as it is: My sister causes me STRESS, School causes me STRESS, and you are causing me STRESS. Now - as I expected - she is ignoring me and not talking to me - which even though helps ease away the STRESS - I now feel GUILTY. Get the picture?
The only hope I have to get my TMJ fixed is to go to Los Angeles and pay 5,000 dollars for a surgery that may or may not work. It blows.
SoB to the next level of SoB. Oh - and I can't speak for today, tomorrow, the day after that and the day after that :P
Adios.