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Is it possible to have a mid-life crisis at 20?
Before I get into that, I have an event I'd like to talk about. In the past two days, someone was in my car, going through my stuff.
I was positive that I locked all my doors, but I guess I missed one. Whoever it was, they were looking for the key to my locking lug nuts for my new wheels. Can't steal the wheels without that. They left everything in the car alone, but tore apart the glove compartment and armrest compartment looking of the key. I keep it in the spare tire chamber under the floor of the trunk area, so they didn't get it. They left my car a mess of papers, and pictures, and receipts and letters...personal stuff. It was a weird feeling. Nothing was missing, but it was...touched. By someone I don't know. It was just creepy.
I double checked the locks this time.
So back to the mid-life crisis.
Tonight I realized that this is the best part of life. Before this point, you're too young to understand the world, and after this point, you're too busy with life to enjoy it. Not completely. It's just that in college, you have more responsibilities, but not too many. You have more opportunities, but not all the complications of career and family. It's the best time to do something crazy. I guess I've always known that, it seems pretty obvious, but tonight it hit me for practically no reason at all.
Superbowl with my friends was lots of fun, especially the part where we stopped watching and just threw stuff at each other! But when things calmed down I hit a weird sort of low. I've been weird lately. I'm happy with my life, my friends are amazing and wonderful, both at school and at home. I enjoy almost every day without too many major complaints. This semester is challenging, but good. But I've been feeling lonely, even when I'm surrounded by my friends. I guess the whole being single thing isn't sitting right anymore. It's gone from making me miserable, to not bothering me, to just being annoying, and now it's starting to really bother me again. I won't bore you all with the details, it's just a contributing factor to my new realization. I guess I just feel like when I'm happy, I want someone to share that with. I don't like keeping for myself.
I need to do something. Something different.
I've been thinking about something, and I guess this is the best time for me to look into it.
I want to go to Australia.
I have no idea why to be honest. I just do.
My school started a study abroad program this semester, so I'm gonna get some info before I think about it anymore.
Anyways, don't none of y'all start worrying about me! I'm totally fine, just a little weird lately. I'll figure it out.
So yeah...I have class so I'm gonna go to bed. I'll probably update again tomorrow.
G'night everyone!
PS (I know it's weird that I'm talking about flying to Australia when my icon is of a character that crashed on a flight out of Australia. Deal with it)
Before I get into that, I have an event I'd like to talk about. In the past two days, someone was in my car, going through my stuff.
I was positive that I locked all my doors, but I guess I missed one. Whoever it was, they were looking for the key to my locking lug nuts for my new wheels. Can't steal the wheels without that. They left everything in the car alone, but tore apart the glove compartment and armrest compartment looking of the key. I keep it in the spare tire chamber under the floor of the trunk area, so they didn't get it. They left my car a mess of papers, and pictures, and receipts and letters...personal stuff. It was a weird feeling. Nothing was missing, but it was...touched. By someone I don't know. It was just creepy.
I double checked the locks this time.
So back to the mid-life crisis.
Tonight I realized that this is the best part of life. Before this point, you're too young to understand the world, and after this point, you're too busy with life to enjoy it. Not completely. It's just that in college, you have more responsibilities, but not too many. You have more opportunities, but not all the complications of career and family. It's the best time to do something crazy. I guess I've always known that, it seems pretty obvious, but tonight it hit me for practically no reason at all.
Superbowl with my friends was lots of fun, especially the part where we stopped watching and just threw stuff at each other! But when things calmed down I hit a weird sort of low. I've been weird lately. I'm happy with my life, my friends are amazing and wonderful, both at school and at home. I enjoy almost every day without too many major complaints. This semester is challenging, but good. But I've been feeling lonely, even when I'm surrounded by my friends. I guess the whole being single thing isn't sitting right anymore. It's gone from making me miserable, to not bothering me, to just being annoying, and now it's starting to really bother me again. I won't bore you all with the details, it's just a contributing factor to my new realization. I guess I just feel like when I'm happy, I want someone to share that with. I don't like keeping for myself.
I need to do something. Something different.
I've been thinking about something, and I guess this is the best time for me to look into it.
I want to go to Australia.
I have no idea why to be honest. I just do.
My school started a study abroad program this semester, so I'm gonna get some info before I think about it anymore.
Anyways, don't none of y'all start worrying about me! I'm totally fine, just a little weird lately. I'll figure it out.
So yeah...I have class so I'm gonna go to bed. I'll probably update again tomorrow.
G'night everyone!
PS (I know it's weird that I'm talking about flying to Australia when my icon is of a character that crashed on a flight out of Australia. Deal with it)