blogging is a pain lol
okay, so it's been like a week or so since i've blogged cause i've been such a lazy ass lately! i went to akihabara and it's like, a dorkus geek otaku dream! just trust me, you wanna go there is you fit into any of those categories...
anyway, i've been sick lately. it fuckin sucks. my allergies attacked me about four days ago and gave me a terrible sore throat! now that i'm over it, i have this cough. now, normally i wouldn't care about the cough cause i know it'll go away, but there's this TB warning going around japan, and i'm all freaked out! FUCK! wth!!!?!??!! why does it HAVE to be me?! not to mention, i've been feeling down lately! i'm homesick and i'm not gonna deny it! i know it's dumb, but i miss good ol la and my friends! i miss being able to listen to the radio or turn on american tv! i miss going to WORK! jesus christ i miss my work buddies and i miss everyone at school! i try to stay connected with facebook and stuff but i always find myself kind of angry that no one's really on when i want them to be because of the fuckin time difference! it is really annoying!
this is such a complaining entry, but i'm going through this phase and it's just compounded by me being sick so i don't really feel like doing anything. goddamn it, i just wanna sleep cause i'm tired due to being sick and gahh i just want a hug so badly from mark! to go from having someone there for you like that pretty much everyday to nothing at all is really hard. i knew this would happen but it's just, i couldn't help it and now that i'm this way, i just gotta deal with it.
we're going clubbing this friday so i'm looking forward to that. also, this wednesday i'm going out with my gospel choir! i'm looking forward to that too, since it'll get me out of the house.
oh yeah, another thing that's REALLY getting me down? my weight. i know i know, it's always a sore spot for me, but damn, since i've been here, i don't know. it just got really bad since i got sick a few days ago. i was looking at the pictures on facebook then some pictures of me from hs and i got really down. damn, how did i let myself get to this? i mean, i gained so much weight since hs and it's really sad cause i've lost it before then i gained it back! seriously! WTF?!?!
so i have about... 14 weeks until i return to the states! i know that within these 14 weeks, i can lose 10-15 pounds! i've done it before so i'm going to do it again. it's really, the will to do it! besides the eating habits, which i'm trying to work on (smaller portions more often, which is hard to do, but i have to try) i need to start working out a few times a week. the easiest thing to do is to just jog, which is what i'm going to do. there is no gym with a treadmill, so i'm going to jog at least three times a week (i walk to school almost everyday which is a 45 minute trek up/down some hills and back) according to this schedule i got online! it seems pretty easy, and starts off really light, but i know that as long as i start slow, i can do it! i just have to keep myself motivated, which is why i'm going to try to keep updating on that here and telling ppl, cause i don't want to disappoint ppl when i get back home! seriously, i went to japan for four months and came back exactly the same?! wtf?! no way! so i'm going to work on that! gaaahhhh! and when i get back to la.... it's the gym everyday! i mean, gindy did it last year, so i can do it this year! which would make starting the school year pretty awesome! XD
okay, well, i'm feeling a little better now, but still a lil lonely. i know i just have to get to know ppl more, but i really miss everyone at home and how everyone just understands me. it makes everything so much easier! oye, this was a long rant! O.o
anyway, i've been sick lately. it fuckin sucks. my allergies attacked me about four days ago and gave me a terrible sore throat! now that i'm over it, i have this cough. now, normally i wouldn't care about the cough cause i know it'll go away, but there's this TB warning going around japan, and i'm all freaked out! FUCK! wth!!!?!??!! why does it HAVE to be me?! not to mention, i've been feeling down lately! i'm homesick and i'm not gonna deny it! i know it's dumb, but i miss good ol la and my friends! i miss being able to listen to the radio or turn on american tv! i miss going to WORK! jesus christ i miss my work buddies and i miss everyone at school! i try to stay connected with facebook and stuff but i always find myself kind of angry that no one's really on when i want them to be because of the fuckin time difference! it is really annoying!
this is such a complaining entry, but i'm going through this phase and it's just compounded by me being sick so i don't really feel like doing anything. goddamn it, i just wanna sleep cause i'm tired due to being sick and gahh i just want a hug so badly from mark! to go from having someone there for you like that pretty much everyday to nothing at all is really hard. i knew this would happen but it's just, i couldn't help it and now that i'm this way, i just gotta deal with it.
we're going clubbing this friday so i'm looking forward to that. also, this wednesday i'm going out with my gospel choir! i'm looking forward to that too, since it'll get me out of the house.
oh yeah, another thing that's REALLY getting me down? my weight. i know i know, it's always a sore spot for me, but damn, since i've been here, i don't know. it just got really bad since i got sick a few days ago. i was looking at the pictures on facebook then some pictures of me from hs and i got really down. damn, how did i let myself get to this? i mean, i gained so much weight since hs and it's really sad cause i've lost it before then i gained it back! seriously! WTF?!?!
so i have about... 14 weeks until i return to the states! i know that within these 14 weeks, i can lose 10-15 pounds! i've done it before so i'm going to do it again. it's really, the will to do it! besides the eating habits, which i'm trying to work on (smaller portions more often, which is hard to do, but i have to try) i need to start working out a few times a week. the easiest thing to do is to just jog, which is what i'm going to do. there is no gym with a treadmill, so i'm going to jog at least three times a week (i walk to school almost everyday which is a 45 minute trek up/down some hills and back) according to this schedule i got online! it seems pretty easy, and starts off really light, but i know that as long as i start slow, i can do it! i just have to keep myself motivated, which is why i'm going to try to keep updating on that here and telling ppl, cause i don't want to disappoint ppl when i get back home! seriously, i went to japan for four months and came back exactly the same?! wtf?! no way! so i'm going to work on that! gaaahhhh! and when i get back to la.... it's the gym everyday! i mean, gindy did it last year, so i can do it this year! which would make starting the school year pretty awesome! XD
okay, well, i'm feeling a little better now, but still a lil lonely. i know i just have to get to know ppl more, but i really miss everyone at home and how everyone just understands me. it makes everything so much easier! oye, this was a long rant! O.o