broken thoughts, torchwood, owen/tosh, pg, 425 words
My first fic written in English. It's really short.
Owen's trying to deal with his "condition".
"I'm broken Tosh!"
He remembered that day when he lost his control and yelled at her. But he felt broken, he knew he was broken, he was dead. He couldn't do so many things, actually he couldn't do anything, even work, since he was injured, and he felt empty. And lonely... he was so lonely. But she still wanted him, he didn't understand but he wanted to 'cause maybe there was a hope if someone thought he's important. But he needed to know why, he just had to know that. Owen closed the door of his apartament and went to hers.
"Why?" That was the first thing Owen said when Tosh opened her door. She was confused.
"Why didn't you give up on me?"
"Come on in." Tosh let him in. "What do you want me to say, Owen?"
"Your reasons, you had to have some."
"Oh, you think? We're friends, you're important to me."
"But why, Tosh?" Owen insisted.
"You're a magnificent person, Owen." She said after a few seconds. "You care about people-" Owen tried to disagree but she cut him off. "Even if you don't want to show that. You help people even if they don't know that. You want people to be happy. I know you never say any of this but I know it's true."
"Still not enough." Owen said. "There's a lot of good people."
"Damn it Owen, why are you acting like you don't know, like you don't remember?" Tosh wanted to cry. "I told you this before, I love you, that's your bloody reason. Now get out."
But Owen just stood there not moving. Tosh sat down on the couch and started crying. Owen didn't know what to do, he wanted to run away but couldn't move, he didn't want Tosh to cry but what was he supposed to do?
After a few minutes Owen sat down next to Tosh and hugged her. After a while she calmed down. She started to apologize but Owen shook his head.
"I'm the one who should be sorry for and I really am. I'm sorry Tosh and I have to go." He said 'cause he knew what he just did was wrong, he shouldn't force Tosh to telling him she loved him.
But when he started to get up she grabbed his hand. "Please stay." Tosh said. He was thinking for a few seconds but then sat down again and cuddled her. They were sitting like that for the next couple of hours not talking just staring at the wall.