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I don't know what I need right now.
Hopefully it's four of my best friends in my life for a weekend.
I am so tired. I am not anaemic but apparently I look and feel it. I have had a period for two months. TWO MOTHERFUCKING MONTHS.
My complete inability to cope with the tests required to solve this dilemma is now resulting in a referral to a specialist counsellor. I am relieved.
All my medications are changing.
I am so tired.
I am sitting in my room with my laptop listening to my music and writing my journal...things I've been craving for at least two weeks. This flat isn't big enough for the three of us.
I am so encouraged by the fact that I CAN have enough of him. That I am not completely dependent. That there have been moments over the last few weeks where I've wanted to shout "GIVE ME BACK MY FRIENDS AND MY FLAT AND MY SCHOOL AND MY MUSIC TASTE!" The couples that turn into each other are the worst, aren't they?
On the other hand, I love the fact that he is currently in the living room on the PS3 with Ash, one of my very best friend. I love that we went to Vikki's last night for Chinese. I love the way he tries to share, I really do, and he doesn't take liberties, this is my issue entirely.
I love him. And it's all been amazing. But I feel very much the need to breathe just for a second, just for myself.
Hopefully it's four of my best friends in my life for a weekend.
I am so tired. I am not anaemic but apparently I look and feel it. I have had a period for two months. TWO MOTHERFUCKING MONTHS.
My complete inability to cope with the tests required to solve this dilemma is now resulting in a referral to a specialist counsellor. I am relieved.
All my medications are changing.
I am so tired.
I am sitting in my room with my laptop listening to my music and writing my journal...things I've been craving for at least two weeks. This flat isn't big enough for the three of us.
I am so encouraged by the fact that I CAN have enough of him. That I am not completely dependent. That there have been moments over the last few weeks where I've wanted to shout "GIVE ME BACK MY FRIENDS AND MY FLAT AND MY SCHOOL AND MY MUSIC TASTE!" The couples that turn into each other are the worst, aren't they?
On the other hand, I love the fact that he is currently in the living room on the PS3 with Ash, one of my very best friend. I love that we went to Vikki's last night for Chinese. I love the way he tries to share, I really do, and he doesn't take liberties, this is my issue entirely.
I love him. And it's all been amazing. But I feel very much the need to breathe just for a second, just for myself.