So let me tell you something
I am going to tell you how good life has unexpectedly become. See, I hadn't slept for like ten days, and it was severely starting to make me go batshit loco, plus I hadn't gotten any of my packages from home, plus I still hadn't paid my accommodation fee due to being ill and not able to get out of the house, PLUS PLUS I just occasionally have got depressions and this was one of those times.
And then, after a late night walk stomping about the castle ruins (we have castle ruins here, and they are not too far away from my location), I came back to my room with the determination that if I was going to have to put up with this bullshit I was going to at least bring some of it under control. So I didn't sleep at all again, but I at least felt like I was turning some sort of metaphorical corner with regards to getting my shit under control. Which is what I proceeded to do with the help of my downstairs neighbor, some sort of herbal sleeping remedy (this is how the downstairs neighbor was involved, you see. She'd seen them in a store or something and insisted that I give them a shot (granted this was like a week before I actually got desperate enough to actually go in for this sort of snake oil salesmanship but still, it's the thought that counts)), and cold medicine.
Then to top things off, I got all three of my packages at once! The day after I managed to sleep for the first time in over a week, no less! I celebrated by going out drinking at an ale festival, came home fairly sober for having been out drinking, and then spent today getting food and starting to finally do work again. I'd completely lost my proverbial mojo on account of my brain wouldn't stop screaming about how awful everything was all the time, but sleep got it to shut its mouth pretty effectively!
So now I've had a good amount of sleep for the last couple of days, and I am gonna try to keep the streak alive by going to bed right around now-ish, in a bed that now has a new pillow (which was one of the things in the packages sent from home). Exciting, right? Life is suddenly okay and all it took was me deciding to not be such a stubborn bastard about pills that claim to be made of different kinds of grass!
And then, after a late night walk stomping about the castle ruins (we have castle ruins here, and they are not too far away from my location), I came back to my room with the determination that if I was going to have to put up with this bullshit I was going to at least bring some of it under control. So I didn't sleep at all again, but I at least felt like I was turning some sort of metaphorical corner with regards to getting my shit under control. Which is what I proceeded to do with the help of my downstairs neighbor, some sort of herbal sleeping remedy (this is how the downstairs neighbor was involved, you see. She'd seen them in a store or something and insisted that I give them a shot (granted this was like a week before I actually got desperate enough to actually go in for this sort of snake oil salesmanship but still, it's the thought that counts)), and cold medicine.
Then to top things off, I got all three of my packages at once! The day after I managed to sleep for the first time in over a week, no less! I celebrated by going out drinking at an ale festival, came home fairly sober for having been out drinking, and then spent today getting food and starting to finally do work again. I'd completely lost my proverbial mojo on account of my brain wouldn't stop screaming about how awful everything was all the time, but sleep got it to shut its mouth pretty effectively!
So now I've had a good amount of sleep for the last couple of days, and I am gonna try to keep the streak alive by going to bed right around now-ish, in a bed that now has a new pillow (which was one of the things in the packages sent from home). Exciting, right? Life is suddenly okay and all it took was me deciding to not be such a stubborn bastard about pills that claim to be made of different kinds of grass!