Standards
There are many things that set me apart from the world--views and ideas that do not resonate with the rest of humanity. One of these, in particular, vexes me to no end: How do men so casually forgive a prodigal slut?
I've not spoken of this often because it puts me in a difficult dilemma; How do I condemn women for this faithless wandering without appearing sexist, stodgy, or just foolish in the moral climate of this age? I think it is a wonderful thing that women are free to do such, and for 99.999% of the population, I couldn't care less how quickly they fuck after a first date or how often they wake up in someone else's bed after a party. No, my problem isn't that women are allowed to do it. My problem comes when women who should have known better choose to.
I have cared for far too many women who turned out to be faithless, jumping from one bed to the next, then whining about being unable to find someone to spend their lives with. They've made themselves into foolish whores for the stupidest men available when they could have been so much more. They can be smart, they can be strong, they can be spiritual, and they can be wise...but when it comes to relationships, they just fuck away without regard for what it might mean when they finally do meet a man they love and he is secretly repulsed by how many beds she has shared.
It isn't about purity. I don't hold these views because they are 'more moral' or somehow 'sacred'. But the love I am looking for is about a deeper connection than the one shared in a bed. If I know she has wandered from shithead to shithead, getting drunk and partying away until she throws up and passes out, am I not entitled to feel disgusted and repulsed at what she has done?
But then comes the real kicker...what woman has not done this, who is still desirable? What woman does not sleep with their crush of the month if she has a body worth lusting after? And even the undesirable ones aren't really looking for something better, more 'pure'. They just don't have the options pretty girls do. And what human aside from me does not use a relationship as a pretense for sex? What person could possibly be seeking that fabled enigima, True Love?
It makes me feel even more alone in the world.
I've not spoken of this often because it puts me in a difficult dilemma; How do I condemn women for this faithless wandering without appearing sexist, stodgy, or just foolish in the moral climate of this age? I think it is a wonderful thing that women are free to do such, and for 99.999% of the population, I couldn't care less how quickly they fuck after a first date or how often they wake up in someone else's bed after a party. No, my problem isn't that women are allowed to do it. My problem comes when women who should have known better choose to.
I have cared for far too many women who turned out to be faithless, jumping from one bed to the next, then whining about being unable to find someone to spend their lives with. They've made themselves into foolish whores for the stupidest men available when they could have been so much more. They can be smart, they can be strong, they can be spiritual, and they can be wise...but when it comes to relationships, they just fuck away without regard for what it might mean when they finally do meet a man they love and he is secretly repulsed by how many beds she has shared.
It isn't about purity. I don't hold these views because they are 'more moral' or somehow 'sacred'. But the love I am looking for is about a deeper connection than the one shared in a bed. If I know she has wandered from shithead to shithead, getting drunk and partying away until she throws up and passes out, am I not entitled to feel disgusted and repulsed at what she has done?
But then comes the real kicker...what woman has not done this, who is still desirable? What woman does not sleep with their crush of the month if she has a body worth lusting after? And even the undesirable ones aren't really looking for something better, more 'pure'. They just don't have the options pretty girls do. And what human aside from me does not use a relationship as a pretense for sex? What person could possibly be seeking that fabled enigima, True Love?
It makes me feel even more alone in the world.