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has anyone ever had the feeling that suddenly evrything sad that has been happening to u over a long peroid of time just sort of hits u all at once?
I've sort of just suddenly got really down and started to cry, which is good because i havent had a good cry in a while and ive been trying to cover up all the sad things that have been happening to me. I've been bottling it all up and suddenly it seems just to have bothered me loads. All its taken is for one person to say something thats made me feel sad and everything has came rushing out. I was fine an hour ago now i feel really really down, im in sort of the mood where i hate myself n just wish to be someone else, i get like this every so often, mainly i get sick of missing people. This is kinda like that but with a bit of selfconciousness rolled into it aswell. I think ive been trying too hard to be optomistic and happy and trying to not act bothered by things that its hit me worse now. I shud deal with things as they come perhaps in future, but i feel like ive got no one to talk about it with.
I know people just joke around when they say some things, but i cant help but take them seriously, especially since im already thinking the things about myself already. I dont think ive been able to have a really deep conversation with anyone in ages. Sometimes i like to get my thoughts out, but with someone that wont judge me or think im weird. I know people probably do think about me, n whether im ok but sometimes itd be nice for them to say it because sometimes my mind can be a scary place. Its just hard to explain how i feel because i dont think im sure myself. I'm not really making any sense at the minute. I might update later when i can think clearer, anyway i just thought id say im down, but itll all be ok, like always
"Today, everything was fine fine fine, until roundabout quarter to nine suddenly I found myself in a bind, a bind. Was it something I said? Something I read and manifest that's getting me down"
I've sort of just suddenly got really down and started to cry, which is good because i havent had a good cry in a while and ive been trying to cover up all the sad things that have been happening to me. I've been bottling it all up and suddenly it seems just to have bothered me loads. All its taken is for one person to say something thats made me feel sad and everything has came rushing out. I was fine an hour ago now i feel really really down, im in sort of the mood where i hate myself n just wish to be someone else, i get like this every so often, mainly i get sick of missing people. This is kinda like that but with a bit of selfconciousness rolled into it aswell. I think ive been trying too hard to be optomistic and happy and trying to not act bothered by things that its hit me worse now. I shud deal with things as they come perhaps in future, but i feel like ive got no one to talk about it with.
I know people just joke around when they say some things, but i cant help but take them seriously, especially since im already thinking the things about myself already. I dont think ive been able to have a really deep conversation with anyone in ages. Sometimes i like to get my thoughts out, but with someone that wont judge me or think im weird. I know people probably do think about me, n whether im ok but sometimes itd be nice for them to say it because sometimes my mind can be a scary place. Its just hard to explain how i feel because i dont think im sure myself. I'm not really making any sense at the minute. I might update later when i can think clearer, anyway i just thought id say im down, but itll all be ok, like always
"Today, everything was fine fine fine, until roundabout quarter to nine suddenly I found myself in a bind, a bind. Was it something I said? Something I read and manifest that's getting me down"