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i don't like it when i question my own feelings. and i REALLY don't like when i question someone elses. i want to know what someone else thinks about me. how they feel about me. but at the same time, i don't. and i'm too afraid to ask it straight forward cause thats how i am. i just want to know what he thinks when hes looking at me.. and talking to me. and when he smiles at me. finding things like this out would probably hurt me more than help me. but i still wanna know. i'm curious.
i think i'm finally guna do something about me wanting to lose a few pounds. i always say that i want to lose the weight, but i never actually try. i think i'm going to now. don't try to tell me i don't need to or shouldn't. its what i want to do, and i'm going to do it. and i'm going to do it in a healthy way. i promise.
sara said to me yesterday, "the best lies are the ones you actually believe."
i've been thinking about that. and now i wonder..
is it possible to lie so much that you actually brainwash yourself?
i think i'm finally guna do something about me wanting to lose a few pounds. i always say that i want to lose the weight, but i never actually try. i think i'm going to now. don't try to tell me i don't need to or shouldn't. its what i want to do, and i'm going to do it. and i'm going to do it in a healthy way. i promise.
sara said to me yesterday, "the best lies are the ones you actually believe."
i've been thinking about that. and now i wonder..
is it possible to lie so much that you actually brainwash yourself?