fluffy tales
typing in my blog at 1:15 a.m. officially signifies that i'm back in school. not that i've been doing anything productive tonight, don't get me wrong... it's this unwillingness to fall asleep. some kind of control thing i'm sure.
random thoughts:
- what used to be a tiny amount of ingredients has transformed into one dose PMS, one dose stupid person, one does expensive books, and a dash of high expectations. i guess i'm maturing or something.
- there were the cutest ducks EVER on cherry creek the other day. this may sound lame at face value, but listen. okay, so there is this wall up on either side of the creek, because it's below the street, right? and the ground on the walls is slighly sloped, and now, is snow covered. so these ducks are running down the slope and right before the wall ends, flying into the air and landing into the creek. it was so cute to watch their fat little bodies waddle down the hill with their little orange feet and then leap into the creek, struggling to gain stability once they land...waddle swimming. haha.
- speaking of birds... there are these teenager swans also hanging out near the creek. they are almost full grown, but still gray. i've never seen them before a few days ago... taking a denver vaca while flying south maybe? anyhow, they're wonderful.
- they should serve cocktails in the bookstore.
- there are so many women in my woman's resistance movement class it gives me menstrual cramps just to sit in there.
- BUT. it's cool because everyone in there is from a different country. seriously. i'm loving the denver diversity.
- i'm really into dumb mtv shows right now. like the one where they put the lie detector on the guys, what is that called? my super sweet 16 is also a weird one... eerie at best.
- walks to school are doing me good. it's been too long since i've had the chance to really reflect and listen to horrible radio music on my walkman.
- oskar has this new thing where he comes up to me while i'm smoking and literally hugs me. he puts his little cat arms around me and rubs his face in my hair and everything. is he addicted to cigarettes?
- milo loves to scratch the shower curtain. now that our yellow chairs are completley destroyed, i'm thinking maybe we should invest in a scratching post.
- this was the 1st semester ever where i wasn't that excited to go back to school. usually, i've got everything marked in colored markers on my calender AND my planner... this time, nicht so much. grad school is tiring. i've never felt so ragged ever. it's hard.
- but i love it. classes are going to be interesting this time around...i'm taking 12 instead of 9 though. so i might go a little crazy. but at least i'll be smart.
- i've let go of a lot of false control i used to dogmatically convince myself of. except for my bedtime... either way, i'm better off (and a lot happier) "without" it. not that i ever had it.
- i guess i should go to bed.
- that's all for now.
- but is it really?
if the world doesn't explode,
she's back with more crap.
random thoughts:
- what used to be a tiny amount of ingredients has transformed into one dose PMS, one dose stupid person, one does expensive books, and a dash of high expectations. i guess i'm maturing or something.
- there were the cutest ducks EVER on cherry creek the other day. this may sound lame at face value, but listen. okay, so there is this wall up on either side of the creek, because it's below the street, right? and the ground on the walls is slighly sloped, and now, is snow covered. so these ducks are running down the slope and right before the wall ends, flying into the air and landing into the creek. it was so cute to watch their fat little bodies waddle down the hill with their little orange feet and then leap into the creek, struggling to gain stability once they land...waddle swimming. haha.
- speaking of birds... there are these teenager swans also hanging out near the creek. they are almost full grown, but still gray. i've never seen them before a few days ago... taking a denver vaca while flying south maybe? anyhow, they're wonderful.
- they should serve cocktails in the bookstore.
- there are so many women in my woman's resistance movement class it gives me menstrual cramps just to sit in there.
- BUT. it's cool because everyone in there is from a different country. seriously. i'm loving the denver diversity.
- i'm really into dumb mtv shows right now. like the one where they put the lie detector on the guys, what is that called? my super sweet 16 is also a weird one... eerie at best.
- walks to school are doing me good. it's been too long since i've had the chance to really reflect and listen to horrible radio music on my walkman.
- oskar has this new thing where he comes up to me while i'm smoking and literally hugs me. he puts his little cat arms around me and rubs his face in my hair and everything. is he addicted to cigarettes?
- milo loves to scratch the shower curtain. now that our yellow chairs are completley destroyed, i'm thinking maybe we should invest in a scratching post.
- this was the 1st semester ever where i wasn't that excited to go back to school. usually, i've got everything marked in colored markers on my calender AND my planner... this time, nicht so much. grad school is tiring. i've never felt so ragged ever. it's hard.
- but i love it. classes are going to be interesting this time around...i'm taking 12 instead of 9 though. so i might go a little crazy. but at least i'll be smart.
- i've let go of a lot of false control i used to dogmatically convince myself of. except for my bedtime... either way, i'm better off (and a lot happier) "without" it. not that i ever had it.
- i guess i should go to bed.
- that's all for now.
- but is it really?
if the world doesn't explode,
she's back with more crap.