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[for_the_han]

Well, it's only fair.

((Holy shit, I didn't notice I accidentally said "anon"))

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[dragonfisher]

What's only fair?

[for_the_han]

"Comment and I am destiny-bound to tell you exactly what I think of you."

Where to start? You are my biggest joy and my biggest headache. You've been extremely patient with me these past few months; first with Raito and L, and then my own inability to separate you from Kongming. And though I understand it must be unpleasant to be "Kongming's reincarnation" instead of Koumei, I can't seem to stop referring to you that way.

And even though I know I shouldn't be greedy; even though I'm happy YOU'RE here, I still wish for Kongming as I know him. Even though I don't know how you would take it.

Maybe it'd be easier for me to get to know you as Koumei instead of Kongming, then.

And I still think your Chi Bi plan is utterly idiotic, but you don't need a forced honesty meme to tell you that.

[dragonfisher]

I might as well note you're not the first to tell me that, either. All of my teachers have made sure to tell me straight out that they believe this is going to bite me, and bite hard. But I'm prepared to deal with that.

As for the rest...very understandable, all of it. You confuse me on a similar level, because I'm never sure how much of whatever feelings for you I may have are mine and how many of them are merely echoes of past lives.

[for_the_han]

...I see.

I suppose I should also mention that I become moderately giddy whenever Kongming himself manifests.

One thousand eight hundred and nine years, and I still have a crush on the man. Heh.

[dragonfisher]

There's also the eternal question of whether or not that distinction matters, or exists in the first place. I feel it does, but the very nature of what I am prevents me from knowing for certain.

Heh, well. That loyalty, and the strength of that emotion--they're both commendable.

[for_the_han]

If there is no distinction, what of your identity, then? Do you not deserve to have your own life? With or without a past life's wife breathing down your neck?

[dragonfisher]

Whether I do or not, I won't. Therein lies the problem. There's no escape from what we are.

[for_the_han]

The route you take, the stops you make along the way, and the final destination are the same.

How you get there is you.

[dragonfisher]

...I suppose that's true.

[for_the_han]

You suppose?

[dragonfisher]

All right, it's true! It's just easy to forget sometimes.

[for_the_han]

Obviously you can't be Kongming; Kongming knows I'm always right.

[dragonfisher]

I think Kongming just did the telepathic equivalent of a doubletake.

[for_the_han]

It's true.