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[for_myworld]

Oh...another Onsen party. I remember when we had the last one. Everyone sounded like they had so much fun. I'm probably not going again this time. I don't have anyone to go with, and the last time I tried, all it did was cause problems for everyone and I felt like a terrible and selfish person. And I'm trying to be better, so I'll just let everyone

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[bookman_jr_lavi]

Lenalee...

[for_myworld]

Yes, Lavi?

[bookman_jr_lavi]

You sounded sad. I didn't realize you had such a bad time at the last onsen party.

[for_myworld]

I didn't go to the last onsen party. I let the three of you go together hoping you would have a good time.

[bookman_jr_lavi]

Oh, I thought you went... I misread it.

...I still feel really bad about what happened with the ball. I shouldn't've made you feel like that.

[for_myworld]

Don't feel bad about it, Lavi. It was my mistake and if I thought I could have solved it by not going, then I wouldn't have gone. I thought about it. But it wouldn't have fixed anything, not really. ...I'm sorry...but I knew that's what you wanted me to do. I just...couldn't bring myself to. It was pretty selfish of me.

[bookman_jr_lavi]

If anyone was bein' selfish, it was me. I dunno what was goin' on with me back then, but I was really... possessive, I guess. Not a good way to be... I almost ruined everythin'.

[for_myworld]

...Were you mad at me?

[[ooc: As we are still within the rules of the blabbermouth event here...he must tell the truth! :P ♥ ]]

[bookman_jr_lavi]

*hesitates a moment, but has to answer* Yeah. I was. *winces* M'sorry. I ain't now, and I know it was wrong to be mad, but... I couldn't help it then.

[for_myworld]

Next time, just tell me, okay? ...And maybe...maybe it wasn't wrong.

[bookman_jr_lavi]

I was mad for selfish and wrong reasons, Lenalee. I was bein' stupid, and I know that. Believe me, I've thought it over a lot... 'specially with Yuu bein' back and changed. I wanna make things right with him this time, and that means not actin' like that, y'know?

[for_myworld]

I'm glad things are going better for the two of you. ...Ah...if they are, I mean. I don't know, really. ...We hardly talk anymore.

[bookman_jr_lavi]

I know... why's that, huh? You're one of my best friends here. I'd hate to think I pushed you away or anythin'. You know I always like talkin' to ya, yeah?

And things are gettin' better. Heh... he's gettin' on better with Allen this time. S'funny.

[for_myworld]

I...for a long time you...made me nervous. I didn't understand why, but now I think it might have to do with something I haven't remembered yet. And I guess it just seemed...like you only really needed Yuu and Allen, and you were happy that way. I wouldn't interfere in what makes someone else happy.

[bookman_jr_lavi]

I made you nervous? M'sorry. Lemme know if you remember anythin' more about that, yeah?

Hey... just 'cause I got Yuu and Allen don't mean I can't have other friends, y'know. M'glad you're my friend.

[for_myworld]

I just...felt like...I mean, the three of you and I are from the same world...but it fe...ah...feels...like I'm...not part of it. And I'm not counting that creepy guy who kept insisting he was my brother.