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For some reason I really want to write a lot today. Things are back to normal now that I'm myself again. Things at the restaurant are okay, if a little boring these days. Sometimes I get really tired of serving the same food over and over to the same people, but I guess that's what I get for taking that kind of a job in the first place. And Allen stops by all the time. I guess he really likes the food there. ...Sometimes I wish I could see the others from my world more often, but I understand that they're busy people, too.
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Actually, that's...not true. I really wish I could see them more often. I feel really disconnected from all of them, for some reason, and I don't know why. Maybe it's because of those memories...I had to really try hard not to think about them after I remembered them. I nearly fell down the stairs again. That man, he is a man, and he...things were so terrible...
Maybe there's something I'm doing wrong? It seems like no one talks with me at all anymore. I know I've been busy, but maybe they're all mad at me for something? I hope I didn't forget something important and not even know about it, that would be terrible! I don't want people to think I don't care...
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It's definitely getting colder here again now. ...It was winter when I got here, I think, and soon it will be winter again. And really, not that much has changed in a year. ...And at the same time, so many things have. But I was hoping that I'd have most of my memories back by now, or at least half of them. Not that I'd know how many were half, I guess. But...I want to be somewhere where I know the people there and the places, and what's supposed to be going on. Somewhere where I don't suddenly wake up one morning turned into a boy.
[[ooc: Of course, none of that is really private!]]