yes indeed, i'm alone again.
tonight was andrew and dan's last night. sucked yet again. but i look on the brightside and hope that the distance between all of us will only make hanging out on breaks better. there'll be so much to say and talk about.....but maybe none of us will say a word and we'll just be glad to be back together. i'm worried, fucking terrified actually. college is this first weird change in life. things are pretty consistent from womb to senior classroom (like that rhyme?) school doesn't change, it just changes venues. but now we get to change venues to a different city, some of us a different state, as well as lifestyles. it's gonna be difficult and i'm gonna try to get my head straight about everything before i go so i don't go into it all stubborn and whatnot...but i make no guarantees. it's hard to say goodbye to my best friends, friends i've had for a number of years that almost requires 2 hands to show. and no one is gonna replace them, no matter how hard they try...or even how hard i try. these guys are in my blood now. joh,dan,andrew,brian...i've known these guys for a longtime and they've become part of me. i feel dependent on them , like i need them to function. and i don't really like having that crutch all the time, but i'm glad it's there when i need it. all i can do is suck it up, dive right in, and take it for what it's worth. i miss you guys and i can't wait to see you soon.
-chris
-chris