what if....
well i get really weird when i listen to coldplay. this is what happens. i realize that i really just want to be with her. but yet, i don't know what to do. i talk to her, everyday. we are like really cool with each other. i can never tell if she does feel the same ever. and sometimes she talks like she wants me to go ahead and ask her, but then she will change totally in like 3 seconds. and i just dont know what to do. i have been in similar situations. but never have i felt so helpless. like, i know what i want and that is to be with her... But... BUT, i don't do anything about it. and in the past i have treated her like shit. like i was just so awesome, but now, i want her... and im cold. that is how i feel, and im not embarassed by being a sissy about it, its just me. i hope i get something soon. cuz i feel empty, and sick, and on the edge of eternal sleep. my heart is dead, my blood is cold, and my lips are turning blue. all i neeed is a sign please. i win, in the end. (i hope)