A student without a teacher
As I walk this life, there is a question that drives me as well as drives me mad:
“Truth or Happiness”
What is the meaning of this question?
How does one answer it?
I have answered it Truth, with a capital 'T', but what are my motivations for this answer? Is it the intrinsic value of the Truth? I have angered Dan with a lack of an answer for a question after 30 minutes of arguing a point for only the value of truth.
So what is the truth that I speak of?
I am starting to think the truth I speak of is the Truth, it being the objective truth. Now what does that mean? I have no clue. That is the problem with objective truth, truth without words to speak of. When one speaks of belief in God, one is speaking of a relative truth to that person. When one speaks of a truth in Science, once again one is speaking of a truth that is relative to that person. The Truth cannot be explained to anyone, due to the lack of words that express what is thought of. If there was a thought that would explain what I speak of it would be lovewisdomfufillnesscompassionhappynesssadnessfear.
What the hell is that?
When I think of myself I think that I am a person ruled by reason. This is not true, those are the thoughts that bubble to the surface that I express, but I am one ruled by emotion as well. When I was younger, in my early teens, someone spoke of me being ruled by emotion, and I took that to heart. I went on a walk to find myself, so I walked for a few years not knowing who I was. After a period of time I stopped walking thinking I knew myself, but I only knew what was on the surface. I went along with my life, seeking knowledge and wisdom, and found myself without knowing who I was again. So I went for another walk, this one physically and spiritually. This time I found who I really was, but I was not ready for the knowledge.
How is one not ready to know who one is?
When one is ready to accept the answer to a question, that is when the person is ready. The answer to who I really am is the Truth. Happiness is the shortcut that we all take when we are not ready for the answer. So I walk toward the Truth, trying to stay the course, always tempted by Happiness.
How does this apply to me?
Honestly I am just a student looking for a master, for I have seen the Truth, and need to understand it.
“Truth or Happiness”
What is the meaning of this question?
How does one answer it?
I have answered it Truth, with a capital 'T', but what are my motivations for this answer? Is it the intrinsic value of the Truth? I have angered Dan with a lack of an answer for a question after 30 minutes of arguing a point for only the value of truth.
So what is the truth that I speak of?
I am starting to think the truth I speak of is the Truth, it being the objective truth. Now what does that mean? I have no clue. That is the problem with objective truth, truth without words to speak of. When one speaks of belief in God, one is speaking of a relative truth to that person. When one speaks of a truth in Science, once again one is speaking of a truth that is relative to that person. The Truth cannot be explained to anyone, due to the lack of words that express what is thought of. If there was a thought that would explain what I speak of it would be lovewisdomfufillnesscompassionhappynesssadnessfear.
What the hell is that?
When I think of myself I think that I am a person ruled by reason. This is not true, those are the thoughts that bubble to the surface that I express, but I am one ruled by emotion as well. When I was younger, in my early teens, someone spoke of me being ruled by emotion, and I took that to heart. I went on a walk to find myself, so I walked for a few years not knowing who I was. After a period of time I stopped walking thinking I knew myself, but I only knew what was on the surface. I went along with my life, seeking knowledge and wisdom, and found myself without knowing who I was again. So I went for another walk, this one physically and spiritually. This time I found who I really was, but I was not ready for the knowledge.
How is one not ready to know who one is?
When one is ready to accept the answer to a question, that is when the person is ready. The answer to who I really am is the Truth. Happiness is the shortcut that we all take when we are not ready for the answer. So I walk toward the Truth, trying to stay the course, always tempted by Happiness.
How does this apply to me?
Honestly I am just a student looking for a master, for I have seen the Truth, and need to understand it.