Do You Realize?

[footsie15]

I realized today that i am happy with myself. The way i look and the way i am. The reason being because i was freaking out about how i haven't been walking every day like i said i would. I have a part-time job now and am looking at another one. I run and do things all the time. But in the end it isn't exercise. I plan on riding my bike whenever i can, long distance. Around the lake hopefully once a week if not twice a month. That's my goal though, to make it all the way around it on the bike path. But walking is another thing, i love to do it but it's been raining for about two weeks. What can you do? Nothing. Today was a revelation. I.Am.Happy. Some days more than others but who doesn't have a shitty day? Other's may not see my way, i don't care what they think. I care what i think, it's my body, my mind, ME. I don't have to lose anymore weight for Jessica's wedding because i've already lost about thirty since last year alone. I look good, i have people tell me this left and right. I've never been a fan of candy or sweets and i've started eaten better. Never a big eater of fast food crap and going out to eat either. If i do this, i want to do it for me, not them. Becuase that's what i was doing. To exercise for me and just become a bit toner. No one probably cares about this but i do and i just wanted to write it out. It was a lightbulb moment. :)

[And hell, if i have Ryan and Greg telling me i'm not fat. I've got it made. ^_^ ]