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i am not strong.
i am very good at appearing to be strong.
when inside, i feel like i have some dark abyss that is always threatening to swallow me whole. this pain that just simply does not go away. and then, if i'm lucky, my back will start shooting pain down to my fingertips and i wont be able to move my head. psychosomatic, anyone?
so yeah, for all of those fools who fell under my spell and still believe i was/am a strong woman........... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH............ jokes on you.
every day is a test of whether i will get out of bed. every moment is a test of whether i will truly expose my most difficult emotions. every night is a test of whether i will i choose to wake up the next day.
and maybe this journal update is a bit too bold. but maybe i just need to admit my pathetic failings to the world.
because, this, my dears, is truly who i am.
i am very good at appearing to be strong.
when inside, i feel like i have some dark abyss that is always threatening to swallow me whole. this pain that just simply does not go away. and then, if i'm lucky, my back will start shooting pain down to my fingertips and i wont be able to move my head. psychosomatic, anyone?
so yeah, for all of those fools who fell under my spell and still believe i was/am a strong woman........... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH............ jokes on you.
every day is a test of whether i will get out of bed. every moment is a test of whether i will truly expose my most difficult emotions. every night is a test of whether i will i choose to wake up the next day.
and maybe this journal update is a bit too bold. but maybe i just need to admit my pathetic failings to the world.
because, this, my dears, is truly who i am.