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Ok great i just back form an interview with menards. I had to fill out a crap load of paper work and then i have to ring some back to them. Then i get to take a drug test. Oh yeah and my favorite part of the whole ordeal is that the fear i have of new people retunred and that is just great. Now i am remind of how nervous i get around new people and i dont knwo what to do i am fafraid of what they are going to do in response of my actions. See that also got me thinking how i wil be like thirty before i get a new girl friend because it takes me forever to get to know people. So life is great i am nervous paranoid and right now i am kinda depressed. What a great life i live. Yeah i know it could be worse and all of this stuff happens for a reason. There has got to be some good here something i can be happy about. Something amazing that will just happen out of the blue but it does not seem like it. You wanna hear something pathetic. All i do now is i work. Then after that i come home and sit in my room and play world of warcraft on my computer. But on the opff chance that someone calls by some freak accident to do something then i will go out. Also there is church and that is just kinda weird because i am either just in the group and no one acknowledges my existence or i have a small conversation with on person. Ther is also the fact of having my ex girlfriend there who refuses to talk to me basically so i makes things really unconfortable for me at least. So i have no idea what else to say. Things seesm to be going down hill and it is not a fun ride.