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I guess what i've realized is that i'm still looking for friends--real friends who don't treat me like shit. Maybe i'm just expecting too much but as far as I can see all i'm getting is disappointed.
Maybe all this socializing bull-shit is pointless and all I get are liars and people who like to point and laugh, because it's all a joke, right? A big funny joke i'm never gonna get 'coz it's on me.
I'm still looking for that friend who'll hold my hair up when i vomit into the toilet bowl. It's been 18 years of ponytails my whole life. I hope i've given my "friends" (one-sided, of course) the courtesy of at least that.
Fuck whatever. This doesn't apply to YOU, of course, so don't bother. It's just the overwhelming sense of melancholy CRAP affecting me. Let's all just not mention this and pretend everything's hunky-dory.
Maybe all this socializing bull-shit is pointless and all I get are liars and people who like to point and laugh, because it's all a joke, right? A big funny joke i'm never gonna get 'coz it's on me.
I'm still looking for that friend who'll hold my hair up when i vomit into the toilet bowl. It's been 18 years of ponytails my whole life. I hope i've given my "friends" (one-sided, of course) the courtesy of at least that.
Fuck whatever. This doesn't apply to YOU, of course, so don't bother. It's just the overwhelming sense of melancholy CRAP affecting me. Let's all just not mention this and pretend everything's hunky-dory.