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SUM 41~Motivation
What's the difference of never knowing at all?
When every step I take is always too small.
Maybe it's just something I can't admit but lately,
I feel like I don't give a shit.
chorus
Motivation such an aggravation,
Accusations don't know how to take them.
Inspiration's getting hard to fake it.
Concentration's never hard to break it.
Situation never what you want it to be.
What's the point of never making mistakes?
Self-indulgence is such a hard habit to break.
It's all just a waste of time in the end.
I don't care so why should I even pretend.
chorus
Nothing's new, everything's the same.
It keeps on dragging me down, it's getting kind of lame.
I'm falling further behind, there's nothing to explain.
No matter what you say nothing's gonna change my mind.
Can't depend on doubt until the end.
It seems like leaving friends has become
This years trend and though I can't pretend.
It's fine to be mislead.
It's not the same but who's to blame,
For all those stupid things I never said.
chorus X2
that my friends is the song that describes pretty much exactly how i feel lately. i just dont care. nothing matters. nothing makes me happy and nothing makes me sad except myself. like if i wanna cry all damn day (like today when i got home) i do it and if i wanna be my happy perky self too i do it. the twins used to make me so genuinely happy but they are so depressed lately and they only seem to bring me down with them and i dont need anyone bringing me down anymore than i feel. actually i dont even know if i have feeling anymore. its like everything is just so blah and who cares? 16 days more of school and i want it to come NOW!! omg i think im gonna die. o i found out today that kyle still likes me. he was bitching about me to my friend marcus and marcus told me in 5th hour. hes like "i didnt know you and kyle went out. i heard you like ditched him after a week because you had commitment problems" and im like "yeah thats the story i told" and hes like "well he said you looked really hott today and its days like these when he misses you the most" and im like "marcus thats exactly why i broke up with him. hes too nice and cheesy like that. i need conflict and a challenge" and he just gave me the strangest look possible. but its true. i like things i can't have but i can too. like everything has to be difficult because then you value it that much more. kyle came too easy. i knew what i wanted and i got it and then suddenly i didnt want it anymore. its just not the same. but yeah i did look cute today not trying to be conceited or anything. i looked like a water melon: a pink tank top and a green skirt and i wore my hair in playful pigtails. i just wish i felt nice too. im getting sick i think. my stomach hurt all day and im so flippin tired i cant stand it. and i was oddly hungry. like REALLY hungry. i feel really sick right now still. i wanna just sleep....zZzZzZzZ