Well It Wasnt the Beach But WHATEVER
well last nite i was kinda sad but then i was like yup i just dont care anymore and then cody calls me. hes like "i was just checking up on you because you havent been your self at school lately and i wanted to know what was up because i miss the happy, a little too hyper yet we still love her rachel" so at first i mean my first instinct answer was nothing just nothing. i mean gosh have i really been that different this last week b/c everyone is bothering me with questions like if im mad at them or not. gosh they all tell me to shut up and finally when im quiet they miss it but w/e. so yeah and then we talked and i told him my little scenerio thingy and he just listened but it didnt take that long i mean ive told gosh knows how many people now that its kinda drilled into my head. i really didnt wanna tell him at first b/c we havent been on best terms lately and whenever i have a problem his solution is well ill beat 'em up for you so yeah and i was just talking so he wouldnt keep asking me what was wrong and i thought it was gonna be like all the rest of the people i talked to: pointless. but idk he helped me alot and he made me feel alot better. he gave me like this strength i guess you could say. well all i know is he made today alot better.
bus to school: fun! danny wore shorts today for the first time this year and i stuck my foot up his pants lol gosh im such a flirt i swear but w/e idc and then they just left school to go to the beach. they invited me but i didnt think it was smart getting into these 17 year old's cars. i guess thinking things over is good sometimes but it wouldve been a blast if i went!
1st hour: well i had a test which we apparently knew about but i completely forgot and hes like go get a scan tron and im like okay and then he starts passing out the tests and im like wait we have a test today? w/e it was pretty easy so it was kewl. o and then we watched a gay movie on fungi~OOOO!!
3rd hour: if there was a sad period it was this one b/c we just sat there and did nothing! gosh i was so bored and i just kinda thought which is never good. i should never be allowed to think!
5th hour: had another quiz. me and crystal called people and we were trying to get their phones tooken away lol but we didnt : ( o well it was pretty fun.
lunch: ate an apple...is that bad? i wasnt hungry yet again
7th hour: took that gay SRI test which i did surprisingly well on for guessing on a bunch. i hate those gay tests cause that room reeks like i dont even know what. o and i finished my book. its the 2nd one in the gossip girl series. its about gay rich girl's lives but its so interesting and like it makes me happy b/c the mean ones get what they deserve in the end as do the nicer ones. o and crystal made me so flipping mad but then i realized again i just dont care so i just kinda ignored her until i got over it. shes just so selfish sometimes and it really upsets me b/c she wants to please herself first before she even thinks of anyone else...even me. yet i seem to always look out for her interests first. but i do do it to myself but w/e
bus home: danny came back to school to catch the bus home and he was sun burnt. he looked so cute. he was playing with my hair today. ive been wearing it this certain way and he said he liked it so it was neat. o and then i got this new hot belt with black stars on it and he liked it and he made me put it on him but it didnt exactly fit being that im "anerexic" and all but it was funny. i got off at cassies stop today and then i walked to sarahs to meet her. it was nice i got to walk a little bit and just listen to my cd player b/c now that we dont have assigned seats on the bus i sit with my friends and we never have a dull moment to listen to musica. so yeah and then i sat in the grass and these 3 black middle school kids talked to me for a little and they were nice i guess. and then i sat and i opened up this little notebook thing that ive written in since like last year and i went through it from the beginning and i ripped some papers out i didnt want anymore for the same reason i didnt want my old journal: i dont wanna remember those things. and then i sat there ripping them up and scattering them about. it was actually fun. and when sarah got off the bus she said it looked like i was trying to make snow or something w/e. but i was so happy to see sarah! she ran off the bus and i ran to her and we just threw ourselves in eachothers arms and i didnt wanna let go. i started to cry i was just so happy to see her! but they were tears of happiness...im done with the sad thing remember...its so yesterday~literally.
so yeah that was my pretty damn good day. i just have some things to set staight now and more people to apologize to...including myself...i did apologize to cody and monique tho for being so rude lately and to christina yesterday and now i have just a very few more. this is definetly a new and better beginning. i think ive matured and gotten better already but as you can see from entry one i got alot more to work on...cya on the flip side my little rockstars and have a silly day!
bus to school: fun! danny wore shorts today for the first time this year and i stuck my foot up his pants lol gosh im such a flirt i swear but w/e idc and then they just left school to go to the beach. they invited me but i didnt think it was smart getting into these 17 year old's cars. i guess thinking things over is good sometimes but it wouldve been a blast if i went!
1st hour: well i had a test which we apparently knew about but i completely forgot and hes like go get a scan tron and im like okay and then he starts passing out the tests and im like wait we have a test today? w/e it was pretty easy so it was kewl. o and then we watched a gay movie on fungi~OOOO!!
3rd hour: if there was a sad period it was this one b/c we just sat there and did nothing! gosh i was so bored and i just kinda thought which is never good. i should never be allowed to think!
5th hour: had another quiz. me and crystal called people and we were trying to get their phones tooken away lol but we didnt : ( o well it was pretty fun.
lunch: ate an apple...is that bad? i wasnt hungry yet again
7th hour: took that gay SRI test which i did surprisingly well on for guessing on a bunch. i hate those gay tests cause that room reeks like i dont even know what. o and i finished my book. its the 2nd one in the gossip girl series. its about gay rich girl's lives but its so interesting and like it makes me happy b/c the mean ones get what they deserve in the end as do the nicer ones. o and crystal made me so flipping mad but then i realized again i just dont care so i just kinda ignored her until i got over it. shes just so selfish sometimes and it really upsets me b/c she wants to please herself first before she even thinks of anyone else...even me. yet i seem to always look out for her interests first. but i do do it to myself but w/e
bus home: danny came back to school to catch the bus home and he was sun burnt. he looked so cute. he was playing with my hair today. ive been wearing it this certain way and he said he liked it so it was neat. o and then i got this new hot belt with black stars on it and he liked it and he made me put it on him but it didnt exactly fit being that im "anerexic" and all but it was funny. i got off at cassies stop today and then i walked to sarahs to meet her. it was nice i got to walk a little bit and just listen to my cd player b/c now that we dont have assigned seats on the bus i sit with my friends and we never have a dull moment to listen to musica. so yeah and then i sat in the grass and these 3 black middle school kids talked to me for a little and they were nice i guess. and then i sat and i opened up this little notebook thing that ive written in since like last year and i went through it from the beginning and i ripped some papers out i didnt want anymore for the same reason i didnt want my old journal: i dont wanna remember those things. and then i sat there ripping them up and scattering them about. it was actually fun. and when sarah got off the bus she said it looked like i was trying to make snow or something w/e. but i was so happy to see sarah! she ran off the bus and i ran to her and we just threw ourselves in eachothers arms and i didnt wanna let go. i started to cry i was just so happy to see her! but they were tears of happiness...im done with the sad thing remember...its so yesterday~literally.
so yeah that was my pretty damn good day. i just have some things to set staight now and more people to apologize to...including myself...i did apologize to cody and monique tho for being so rude lately and to christina yesterday and now i have just a very few more. this is definetly a new and better beginning. i think ive matured and gotten better already but as you can see from entry one i got alot more to work on...cya on the flip side my little rockstars and have a silly day!