OMG
omg where do i start? ok well yesterday i went to cassies house all day and we went to the mall. we took the palm tran which was cool cause i like never took one before. our main goal of the day was to go "boy shopping" but there wasnt like anyone there. except this hott kid in hollister who we sat and marvelled at for a while but megan and kelsey apparently got his number i so dont believe it tho! but yeah so i got sunglasses, a hott belt with of course stars on it, and a shirt. but anyways this kid comes up to me in sam goody and is like "i know you from somewhere" and im like "uh huh" with a look on my face thats like ok buddy idk who the frick you are and hes like "you go to gardens?" and im like "yeah ok" and hes like "i do too whats your name?" and i gave him the appropriate answer "rachel" and hes like "hey im corey" and then we talked and then there was akward silence ::cricket:: and so hes like "well ill cya around" and then for the rest of the day i was really angry at myself for not inviting him to like walk around the mall with us or for his number or something GRRRRRR and he was really cute too. and cassie knows how mad i was cause she was mad at me too lol. so yeah then we came home and got off at veterans park and walked to chris's house (who was convienently outside playing basketball) and so we all hung out for a bit. and we still had our mall bags with us so chris and anthony are trying on cassies new thongs she just bought. omg what weirdos! it was so funny tho. and then they get firecrackers out and anthony threw one at me and it scared the shyt outta me omg what a douche bag! yeah so then we had to go home and eat a delicious dinner (it was mucho yummy cassie) and then we just rode our bikes back to his house. i met kamar there (we call him k-mart) and then some other cooly kids! so we drove to blockbuster and got a movie and came back to watch it. but in the meantime im growing a liking to chris. i mean he grabbed my ass, said it was nice, and was flirting with me like crazy. and so we go to watch the movie and he put his arm around me and it was just all really nice. and yeah more shyt went on but im summarizing pretty much. so then we hugged bye and yeah left. so then i get home and we go to mickey dees to get icecream and we stole a bag of food off the counter that wasnt ours but cassie told me to do it so whateva its my body i do what i want. lmao that was fun cassie. it was like winning the lottery! JACKPOT. yeah and so then cassie was watching like thats so raven or something and i was in the comp room right all up in there and i was talking to josh about my great nite with chris. during this time i was informed of some interesting things. apparently he might likes me again. he doesnt know. but omg when he told me that i was so flippin happy. well i was mad at first but then i was happy. i mean here i am moving on and trying to start something new and it all leads back to something old. gosh! im going outta my mind here tho. its all i can think about cause if he'd ask me out id do it in a heartbeat despite all the shyt that went on in the past but im not waiting around anymore. i wont do it to myself. so its like what more can i tell him than "ill go out with you if you wanna try it again" and although people are telling me not to and im stupid i dont care cause id rather be with josh than chris (even tho hes hott and nice and omg do you see my problem?). id rather be with josh than anyone which why i let him use me because it was the closest thing i could get to what i really wanted which was to go out with him again. whatever im just like in awe of everything. everything with chris and now josh. fuck fuck fuck i feel a heartache coming on someway or another but whatever as long as the path that gets me there is worth it. SEE CASSIE IM A POSITIVE THINKER!!!
confused more than anything <3rae
confused more than anything <3rae