You Wont Get To See The Tears I've Cried

[footballchic42]

i deleted that last entry cause it was like WOW. i cant believe i felt that way. i dont even remember writing it. i cried a total of 6 hours from saturday nite til sunday morning. and then i just let it go. im sick of crying so much over things i just cant change. everything is the way it is for a reason and i was given these obstacles to overcome and only learn from and become stronger. it just took 3 weeks for me to realize it. so im for real this time...im okay now. :) only three more days of school. i cant flippin wait. itll be really sad though cause now im just starting to reconcile and become closer with people. like danny sat with me today on the bus for the first time in a month at least. and we just talked. he was like so i hear you hate me? and im like no i dont hate anyone and hes like i love how you can say that so innocently. and im like but i really dont. and hes like well im sorry about everything. and im like its ok. and then hes like are you sure? and im like yeah i dont hold grudges i dont care its just i wondered why you were so angry at me. and hes like yeah i heard some things that werent exactly true and im like no kidding. and he patted me on my head and then we just talked. hes like my big brother. we are going to the movies with him, steven and cassie on friday. i wonder if hes still going out with that savannah girl. whatever im glad we are friends again. it really made my day cause i miss his hugs and just flirting with him. hes fun to well have fun with lol. whatever its hott. and my sister and i had so much fun yesterday. candace came with us to the mall and i got a cute new halter top, white cargo pants, the new fall out boy cd, and hott jean shorts. they are nice summery clothes. but yeah so when we got home me and char just chilled and were being so dumb and gay and making jokes. we sat in traces room like singing disney songs. and then at dinner we were still crackin jokes. it was great. and then we discussed that we complete eachother. like everything im not she is and vice versus. i swear if you put us together we could be like the perfect person. but we just have so much fun together and all we do is laugh at things!!!! well now im studying for my biology and spanish exams that i have tommorow. this is my hardest exam day. all the others arent bad but me and crystal are staying after school on wednesday for math tutoring cause we dont get it (maybe cause all we do is sit in the back and talk but w/e) so itll be hott on the stove. well i really ought to be studying because i dont remember nada.
over and out <3 rachel