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I feel great today. Like, this past weekend I was horribly miserable... between everything that has happened, having to umpire and being horribly afraid, and being alone all weekend (although my sadness led me to buy a new bathing suit that I will never regret!)... and today everything is just fantastic.
I woke up, I went to a foodlocker meeting and am feeling really good about it. Amy and I went for a run, I tanned and it felt so good. Jeri is back, Connie finished the painting of Jeri so all our pictures are up, the house is full and happy, I got a secret job today which I am quite stoked about.... I just feel so good. I mean, I am in the midst of breaking up with Eugene, I have done horrible things in the past few weeks... and I feel great!!! Things could go either way with Marcus and I think I would be okay with it... a huge summer '08 crush was talking to me on facebook the other day (haven't talked to him since the Del) and might be in my area this summer... it's just... man, I just feel really good. Almost manic, like maybe I might be crazy. But I am just SO looking forward to the summer.
I feel good. If I am even more lucky, everything will go my way. But I don't want to jinx it so I won't even say it.
Spring is the best time to break up with someone. It's like nothing can get you down. I compare my break up with Eug now and the one back in January... I felt horrible, and felt the need to message him constantly last time... but this time, I am fine. I don't need that, and I feel good, I don't feel miserable and I finally feel it's the right thing to do and that I CAN do it.
I woke up, I went to a foodlocker meeting and am feeling really good about it. Amy and I went for a run, I tanned and it felt so good. Jeri is back, Connie finished the painting of Jeri so all our pictures are up, the house is full and happy, I got a secret job today which I am quite stoked about.... I just feel so good. I mean, I am in the midst of breaking up with Eugene, I have done horrible things in the past few weeks... and I feel great!!! Things could go either way with Marcus and I think I would be okay with it... a huge summer '08 crush was talking to me on facebook the other day (haven't talked to him since the Del) and might be in my area this summer... it's just... man, I just feel really good. Almost manic, like maybe I might be crazy. But I am just SO looking forward to the summer.
I feel good. If I am even more lucky, everything will go my way. But I don't want to jinx it so I won't even say it.
Spring is the best time to break up with someone. It's like nothing can get you down. I compare my break up with Eug now and the one back in January... I felt horrible, and felt the need to message him constantly last time... but this time, I am fine. I don't need that, and I feel good, I don't feel miserable and I finally feel it's the right thing to do and that I CAN do it.