life really knows when to kick you when you're down....
so, just as always, once things start getting good in my life, the gods have to come in and take a big shit on my parade. I was super excited after Sunday because JJ and I finally bought our wedding bands. Yet alas, my sister calls me last night saying she was fired from IHOP (not really my problem, but I know that she will try and get me involved in the drama). then this morning I woke up to the sound of my phone on vibrate. my mom was on the other end crying her eyes out, apparently because my dad says he wants to get divorced. now, my dad and my mom have gotten into fights before and said they were getting a divorce, but never to the point where my mom actually calls me to let me know that they are probably going to be breaking up. given, my dad hasn't presented her with any divorce papers or anything like that, but it seems pretty serious to me this time. i have been waiting all day to wake up from the dream like state that i entered into at 7 AM. also while my mom was crying she seemed want to vent out another little wonderful tidbit. my grandmother, who is by far my favorite relative besides my parents, apparently has a lump in one of her breasts. she has already had breast cancer before, and has been in remission since i was a baby. the thought of losing her is killing me inside. no word yet on whether the lump is cancer or not, but it's got me freaked out to the point where i want to go get a mammogram at this very second (i am so afraid that i am going to get cancer.....i'm pretty sure it will happen sooner or later). JJ keeps telling me that maybe everything will work out, but i have a good feeling that it wont. I called off work tonight, so hopefully i have a chance to calm down before having to go in tomorrow.....but i probably wont. In the meantime, I am probably going to clean the apartment like a meth-head, and watch really trashy reality tv to take my mind off of it all. if anyone wants to, they can call me, or if you want to stop by and watch flavor of love 3 with me for hours on end, you can do that too. I kind of feel better now that I've vented, even if it is only on a trivial internet site.