things happen for a reason.......but it hurts....

[foolofapril]

Damn....what a crappy ass day this has been....dave broke up with me today...informing that he is joining the military and that he just wants to be friends with me......it hurts so much.........my girl glendaly was on the fone with me trying to get my mind off of it...thanks girl...my heart is completely in pieces......i know its nothing that i did....hes going through problems and this is a drastic measure that he has to take..and it sucks so much...i finally figured it out though....he has been relying on me and all of his friends for money and favors ....that he so sick of it..he wants to be independent.....and it hurts me so much that he has to do it this way......i just talked to him on the fone...and i soon as i heard his voice i started balling my eyes out...i want him to be happy and he wants me to be happy....the whole situation just sucks....going to work is gonna suck 2morrow....cuz thats where we basically got together.....damn.....what did i do to deserve this.....he called me buddy on the fone and that made me cry.....hes likes ill always love you and im sry for all the pain im putting u through...but i have to do this for myself....and then it sucked when we hung up the fone cuz there was no i love you at the end...and god that was the worst...i cant look at anything the same again...he always used to come into my house and climb intp bed with me and just hold me...i was the happiest person in the world when i was in his arms....

thanks to everyone who has comforted me in anyway today...ill get through this somehow...i dunno how long this is gonna take but.....i dunno...