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It was pain
Sunny days and rain
I knew you'd feel the same things
Everybody knows
Tt hurts to grow up
And everybody does
It's so weird to be back here.
Let me tell you what
The years go on and
We're still fighting it, we're still fighting it
Oh, we're still fighting it, we're still fighting it
And you're so much like me
I'm sorry
so. basically. im once again bored with my life. first of all, my social life sucks. don't get me wrong, i have made friends here. and they are fun. but, they always leave on the weekend and we never go out to parties or anything. sometimes,its nice and i don't mind, but then i think "what am i missing out on?" i see everyones facebooks and hear stories,and i get jealous and sad. it's not the same here.
i miss the atmosphere of highschool. every night,i was out. i smoked.i drank. i fucking miss smoking so much it's insane. i crave it,which is sad. and i mean,isnt college suppose to be easier? easier to find weed and beer? it is yet i have zero connections nor do i feel like going solo to parties. imnot a party girl,i know im not, i like drinking...but i dont like insane out of control parties. i guess im missing that gene or something.
i want something new. i want to do something bold. i want to be 21 and go to bars. this halloween blows. i miss my friends. i miss my car. im trapped here. and its not fun being trapped here.
i like college. i do. do i like towson? no. if i knew what i know now,i would have never applied bc its nothing special, i want to go away.
junior year. if im still thinking this way, i'm going to do something. right now,if i switched colleges, i dont know...i dont know if i could cope being far away from my family quite yet. i will be one day, but not right now.
i want to fastforward.
my lovelife sucks. i havent met one single boy.something is wrong with me. oh thats right,i dont try. and i look like complete shit as always bc my hair is awful. i dont feel pretty. and im surrounded by blonde bimbos that are drunk 15/7.....
i must give off bad vibes or make people nauseated with my looks.
my face is too fat, ive got love handles like no other, but im too damn lazy to work out because i was born without that gene as well.
i wish live was served to you on a silver platter.i really do.
but it never is.
i normally love halloween. but now im in my sweats, craving a cigarette and watching reba while listening to ben folds sing depressing songs and im sad/bored/lonely out of my mind.
Sunny days and rain
I knew you'd feel the same things
Everybody knows
Tt hurts to grow up
And everybody does
It's so weird to be back here.
Let me tell you what
The years go on and
We're still fighting it, we're still fighting it
Oh, we're still fighting it, we're still fighting it
And you're so much like me
I'm sorry
so. basically. im once again bored with my life. first of all, my social life sucks. don't get me wrong, i have made friends here. and they are fun. but, they always leave on the weekend and we never go out to parties or anything. sometimes,its nice and i don't mind, but then i think "what am i missing out on?" i see everyones facebooks and hear stories,and i get jealous and sad. it's not the same here.
i miss the atmosphere of highschool. every night,i was out. i smoked.i drank. i fucking miss smoking so much it's insane. i crave it,which is sad. and i mean,isnt college suppose to be easier? easier to find weed and beer? it is yet i have zero connections nor do i feel like going solo to parties. imnot a party girl,i know im not, i like drinking...but i dont like insane out of control parties. i guess im missing that gene or something.
i want something new. i want to do something bold. i want to be 21 and go to bars. this halloween blows. i miss my friends. i miss my car. im trapped here. and its not fun being trapped here.
i like college. i do. do i like towson? no. if i knew what i know now,i would have never applied bc its nothing special, i want to go away.
junior year. if im still thinking this way, i'm going to do something. right now,if i switched colleges, i dont know...i dont know if i could cope being far away from my family quite yet. i will be one day, but not right now.
i want to fastforward.
my lovelife sucks. i havent met one single boy.something is wrong with me. oh thats right,i dont try. and i look like complete shit as always bc my hair is awful. i dont feel pretty. and im surrounded by blonde bimbos that are drunk 15/7.....
i must give off bad vibes or make people nauseated with my looks.
my face is too fat, ive got love handles like no other, but im too damn lazy to work out because i was born without that gene as well.
i wish live was served to you on a silver platter.i really do.
but it never is.
i normally love halloween. but now im in my sweats, craving a cigarette and watching reba while listening to ben folds sing depressing songs and im sad/bored/lonely out of my mind.